New and struggling!

[barkingmad]

Hi, I'm 49, married with two teenagers.  I work virtually full time.  I've suffered from depression on and off since my first child was born 17 years ago.  My mum has bipolar disorder and my dad's just come out of hospital after having a hip replacement.  My youngest son has just broken his wrist!  I've been physically unwell for a couple of years and in December was diagnosed with ME.  I've been doing really well though, managed to join the gym and do a bit of swimming, and as long as I don't do too much I'm ok.  But I've got financial problems and it's hit me hard.  I don't know which way to turn and each day is a fight to get through.  Now I'm scared because I keep thinging about suicide, not actually carrying it out, but thinking about it.  I feel guilty and bad.

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome Jackie

I would seriously suggest you tell your GP of these thoughts

Z xx

[barkingmad]

Thanks - yes I'm seeing my GP on Wednesday.  I'm also seeing a counsellor tomorrow.  I'm scared because I know these thoughts aren't right 

[Zaf]

They certainly arent good thoughts to have but you've realsed that and taken steps to get help which is the important thing

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Hello Jackie and welcome to the forum,  its understandable that you are scared, we understand here & hopefully you will find the forum as Helpful and supportive as I have.

You have done the right thing in making an appointment with your gp and by seeing a counsellor.

S x x x x  

[barkingmad]

Thank you for your support, it's great to know there are people who understand  :)

[Sweetpea]

Thats the lovely thing about this forum we all know what its like to suffer and we can help and support each other.

S x x x x

[Ezel]

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[KateG]

Hi and welcome, please don't feel guilty for how you feel, we all understand here

Kate x

[lost rolex]

i keep giving myself another week then think of taking my life, just get over this week then start again, i think of taking my life and it makes me happy a way out the end, i can see that's what most people want, i have nothing to offer anyone, and my life is just very slowly coming to a end.







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[CharleysAngel']

Hi and welcome to the forum, everyone here is really friendly and will support you whenever we can :)

I agree with the others that you should see your GP and tell them these thoughts. I sort of know what you are going through, I am currently in the process of being diagnosed with ME and have been really poorly for a while too

Take care xx

[sleepless]

Hello,

I know how you feel too. I just joined this forum - I am so tired I have hashimoto's disease and under investigation for hormone probs and CFS/ME. The pressures around me all get too much - I find it hard to assert myself and feel trapped. I do also have those thoughts - I also binge from time to time as an outlet. I have just moved house and so stressed I dont like where I am now liiving - a friend wants to move in - I feel its all too much - I am on antibiotics and get sick often. I feel very alone. I dont know now whether to tell her no or yes - the house is depressing as I cant keep up with stuff here I feel awful overall. I dont know how sympathetic or helpful she will be or if i want anyone else around i feel overwhelmed as im just survivinng. I ve had this stomach bug two weeks usually id be better by now all the factors at once are too much and i feel more vulnerable than usual.

I hope this will be an outlet and reassure me  and for u u are definitely  not alone and hope ur GP good !"!.   

[whiteadder]

Sorry I missed your post before  - welcome :)

[Holykimura]

Welcome and hope you find some solace here!