suicidal

[misunderstood-x]

i dont want to die, but i dont want to live.

since being too old for CAMHS and adult services being rubbish i have no support. iv moved house and dont feel comfortable talking to my new GP (or any gp)

at the moment im struggling getting through hour by hour not even thinking about day by day

i dont know whats made me get worse recently. iv been stable for a while now but recently... i cant think straight, n just feel so 'out of it' n staring at walls n not wanting to see or talk to anyone.
not sure what to do. i feel like im fighting a losing battle 

[misunderstood-x]

iv attempted suicide before 4 years ago. im scared i wont be strong enough not to try again. like iv put ^^ i dont want to die, just living is so hard at the moment and it doesnt look like its going to get any easier. nights are always the worst for me.

[Sweetpea]

Have you thought of contacting your local MIND centre?  If you really cannot face your gp.  You really should not be suffering alone and you should get help.

S x x x x

[Sallas]

I can defiantly relate. Struggling myself so all i can say is hang out here awhile its helped me today. Much Luv xxxxxx

[misunderstood-x]

hi shaz
what can MIND do?
x

[mrmoody]

I can relate to what your saying also having felt like this alot recently myself. Mind are good, I approached them recently myself, they should have several services including counselling. it takes time with counselling but it does help

[Sweetpea]

MIND have many resources that could help you, including courses and as Mr Moody said counselling.  Just thought it was worth contacting them as I have found them to be very good.

S x x x x

[Sallas]

Hope your feeling abit better. I was the same yesterday. I dont like giving advice when i cant help even myself but yeterday i found here helpful and i literally took it hour by hour, everytime the clock went by another hour i was kinda proud of myself that i didnt do something stupid. Maybe just aim hour by hour for now til u feel better. Maybe try do something nice for urself, i got a nice lunch by myself today, it wasnt much but something i liked, u deserve something nice, maybe try that? X

[Sallas]

Ps: lame answer i know it pales/sounds stupid to suggest something so simple considering goe u are feeling but it did help me today.

[Got]

Do you have a the local crises team number? If you are suicidal then it is time to give them a call.

Remember this current emotion will not last and you will experience improvement and begin to feel better again, and then you will be glad to be alive. Suicide is not a good option.

Steve XX