Hi, just a quick run down about me. Married 36 yrs with one daughter and up to seven years ago when my father became ill and died and getting cancer myself at the same time as looking after my dad I'd never suffered from any type of depression but a few months after his death I began feeling so terrible that I thought there was something really seriously wrong with me. Went to docs and she wasn't surprised at the symptoms I was getting with the trauma I'd experienced over the previous eight months. She diagnosed depression and put me on 20mg fluxotine I was on them until last november when my body started to react against them and the doc said it my bodies way of saying it was time to stop taking them which I did and have felt great until about a month ago when the old feelings started to return at first I thought it was just a glitch so hung on until this last friday when I realised I wasn't going to get better without help. The doc once again wasn't surprised as she said that after my first and only at that time bout of depression I was now more than likely pre-deposed to having it. I thought once I'd had a few months of fluxotine I'd never feel like this again. She has now put me on 20mg citalopram to start with to get me back to feeling "normal" then dropping it down after several months to 10mg to keep me "level" and she shocked me by saying I could be on them for life. To be honest I don't like the thought that I will never feel "normal" again without having to take pills to make me feel that way. Never to feel happy unless it's drug induced.
A few hours after taking the first tablet I began having a very upset tummy and a dull headache it's now sunday and both have improved except at 4am this morning I started with a migraine can anyone tell me if citalopram causes migraines. sorry this has been a long post. I so want to feel well again, at times I wonder why am I here as there's nothing left for me to do in life.
