does it ever get to the point where you dont want to ask for help anymore?

[Zaf]

I agree with shaz, this forum has been a godsend, the support is fantastic :)

My biggest difficulty with rest is the guilt feelings, I'm still working on them...

Z x

[Sweetpea]

Same here Zaf, we shouldn't feel guilty but we do.  But we can't help being the way we are.

S x x x x

[Buttercup]

Rest is a problem here too, I'm sat here thinking I really should be doing something 

[mrmoody]

it wasnt a criticism of this forum or anyone that uses it, althought some forums I have used have added to my woes and anxiety(not mentioning any names eh Shaz lol). It just it gets to a point where with all the pain inside it seems like beyond redemption. Its hell basically, thats what it is a living hell. Yes of course it means alot that you lot understand and I always feel less alone and less of a weirdo after using any depression forum! It helps in the same way I guess a good stroll can help, not to fix you but just lift your mood abit.

[Micky]

Well Mr Moody, knowing there are other people who are out there who have very similar issues has helped me a little. I feel less like a freak.

[mrmoody]

I have always felt a freak, even before depression. Now I am learning to embrace it and all my freak friends I have like George and Steve and Rob who are all highly intelligent but live on the periphary of life. And not in a 'I am a psychopath' type way either lol

[Zaf]

I've always felt as though I didn't fit in and wasnt 'normal' for a lot of reasons, I believe that part of the reason I have depression is because of that - I put on a 'normal' front but inside I'm very different

[Buttercup]

Same here Zaf.

I also have always felt like a freak and didn't really fit in. I understand exactly how you feel.

Xxx

[mrmoody]

well heres to being a freak and always on the outside looking in! long may it last!

[Zaf]

Perhaps its us thats normal and the rest of the world that isnt?

[Sweetpea]

Well said Zaf, perhaps thats why we all get on so well on here  .

S x x x x

[pinkcasi]

I do agree Mr moody i go through periods of years where im well and dare i say it 'normal' and then outta nowhere blam!! it's there again and i think i just dont have the energy anymore why do i have to keep going through this why can't life just be easy.  I dont know what came first the freaky or the depression i was always a weird little kid, but a happy one i think until my teen years which is normal right, all that teenage angst, hating your parents and the world in general, i guess everyone thought i would grow out of it but hey ho here i am, at least we have places like this to vent to people that get it.
So thanks for that :)

[mrmoody]

what I was trying to say is, sometimes it gets so much that I think whats the point in posting on a depression forum, whats the point in cbt, whats the point in cpn's and medication and doctors when every bloody day it feels so bad and never changes. Whether you feel a freak or odd or whatever, so what, you could be a happy freak or oddball, its not that that is the problem. All the time I feel like posting something and then I dont bother as I think whats the point, it never gets better and the pain doesnt go away.

[Zaf]

I guess it could be a lot worse without all thse things - I feel worse if I try to reduce my meds or dont rest enough and I certainly dont want to go back to the low I suffered July last year

Z xx

[Micky]

Like you said to me...........maybe one day the pain will go away.