Weekend starting and once again I can feel myself getting more edgy and upset.

[Micky]

I hate the weekends, unless I visit a friend which means I can usually keep my mind off my troubles. If I could I'd just go to sleep now and wake up Monday morning I'd be happy.

[Zaf]

Do you not have anything you can do over the weekends to help?

[Micky]

Loads of stuff but it doesn't help. I know I have an empty house to go home to. Most of my friends live in different parts of the country and besides when I get like this I push them away. I've closed my Facebook account temporarily and another forum I frequent, I haven't visisted since the beginning of the year.

[Zaf]

Thats one of the horrible things about depression, sometimes I want people around me and sometimes I want to be alone but people that havent suffered depression dont understand that

[Micky]

Funnily enough most of my close friends have which makes me feel guilty, especially as they've gone through much worse things than me.

But then again they're mostly in or have been in loving relationships so can't grasp my feelings about this.

Sometimes I feel so stupid for being like this.

[Zaf]

I dont think its stupid, most people want to le and be loved

[Micky]

Yes but to feel this intense about it?? 

Just thinking about it starts me getting upset and I have to block it out, (which I am getting better at).

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you Micky.  Weekends are hard when you are on your own, let alone when you suffer with depression too.

S x x x

[Micky]

Thank you Shaz!   :)

[mrmoody]

I know exactly how you feel. I have written something similar on this forum. I wish I could sleep through weekends too. I keep busy during the week but weekends I go into a worse depression unless I get to see friends. My friends are scattered all over UK and one in Italy.