Hi everyone.
This is my first post. I'm Peter 31, and I suffer from depression and general anxiety disorder, and I am fighting a drink problem too. It's been on an off for the last 12 years, but I always held down a good career. In October my condition worsened. I have since lost my job, my wife and my home. The wife wasn't very understanding and I am glad to be moving into a new chapter, albeit an unknown one.
The worst part of my condition is the derealisation - a condition where reality seems very dreamy, and you feel very disconnected sensory wise to reality. It's horrible. It's like being at the bottom of a swimming pool and everything you see and hear is filtered through the water first.
I am on 150mg Venelafaxine which keeps the worst of the derealisation, anxiety and panic attacks away, but the dull depression is ever there. I can't remember what the feeling of happiness is anymore. My doctor has just prebscribed me a low dose of Quetiapine which I will pick up after the weekend. Has this helped anyone here at all?
I'm glad I have found this site. It is comforting in a way that I'm not alone and there are others who understand, although I'd do anything for all of you to not have depression obviously.
I live in Romford, Essex, and am looking to make friends. Male or female. Any romantic possibilities reserved for the females only!
I wish you all well, and give my love to every one of you.
