Hi everyone my names Chelliiee (cheryl) I'm 20 from the UK have been suffering with depression since I was 12 years old when my dad passed away when I was 12, my granddad also passed way when I was 14, my mum wasn't around she left me when I was 10 for another man so when never got on she kept coming in and out of my life when she felt like it but I finally shut her out of my life when I was 16.
At the age of 14 I was being abused not going to go in detail by my sisters partner for 2 years this made a big impact on my life.
I left home when I was 16 and met a partner of my own I was in a trapped and in a voilent relationship for 3 years.
My depression started getting worse when I reached to 17 I started self harming and taking overdoses at first it was a cry for help and now it is different I don't know where I want to be, one day I want to be here then the next I get these suicidal feelings and thoughts.
I am currently on fluoxetine 20mg been back on them for a week I am also seeing a pdoc and my GP weekly.
I just want someone who I can talk to I have no family there for me so I feel like I am on my own, my friends don't understand so I can't talk to them about my depression and my problems so this is my last place.
Thank you for reading and sorry for the essay needed to get it all out of me.
