Hey, just looking for someone to talk to...

[justlittleoldme]

Hey everyone,

I'm Nikky.

I thought I'd sign up as I'm just looking for someone to talk to really.

I feel like I'm going crazy - I've always been moody - but for the past year or two I just feel constantly lonely, and down, for days I can't snap out of the mood that I'm in, or I'll have a really good day with my friends and I'll get home and I can feel myself slipping further down and having a good cry. I have trouble sleeping and have had for the past few years - either I can't get to sleep, or I get to sleep and don't stay asleep, or I have really horrible nightmares. I'm anxious all the time, I over think things, I'm paranoid, I need assurance from people that everything is fine, I cry, a lot, and I just don't feel good enough. I love my family and friends to bits but I can't talk to them about this - they know I get down but not to what extent. I feel like I'm loosing my mind. Is it normal to feel like this? x

[Zaf]

Hi and welcome Nikky

It is very possible you're suffering from depression, have you considered seeing your GP?

Z xx

[Buttercup]

Hi, i think most of us are from the UK. Welcome to the forum

I would suggest that you went to your GP and try to explain how you feel. You could take a copy of your post if that is easier.

[justlittleoldme]

Thank you for your replies,

I do think I should go I'm just worried they wouldn't believe me. Mostly on the surface I seem fine so I think people will think there's nothing wrong with me. I'm worried I wouldn't be able to get it across as I completely clam up when talking to a doctor x

[Buttercup]

Doctors are quite good at listening. Maybe jot down some things so that if you glam up you can pass over the bit of paper.

[Zaf]

I agree, write things down to tae with you and try to be as honest with the doctor as you can without hiding anything

Z x

[Sweetpea]

I also agree, I don't like going to the dr's either.  I think writing down how you have been feeling and taking it with you would be a good idea.

Take care

S x

[KateG]

Hi and welcome. Definitely go and see your GP, they will believe you but writing it down might help you

[ifeelcursed]

Hi,


Yeah I would definately go and see your GP, they will do a test to see if you are suffering from depression and will then work with you to find ways to manage it.

From what you have said I think talking to people is going to help you so much, talk to us on here anytime, we all are in the same boat so it helps to talk to people who understand how you feel and dont judge you.

Push your GP to get you counselling, again someone there you can talk to openly in confidence and not feel judged or criticised.

I would try and learn as much as you can about depression aswell, you will understand your mind better also learn how to cope and manage it better than you may be doing now. It doesn't mean it will just change and get better overnight, you will have good days and bad days but hopefully you will find the ways that will help you have more good days than bad.

Welcome :)

[ifeelcursed]

The other thing to bear in mind is when you see the gp and do the test be as honest as possible, it might be that the results dont show your depression (this happend to me once or twice) but this is why if it doesn't then still talk to people.

Talk to your closest friends and family, if they are truly love you then you will be surprised about how much they want to help aswell. Its really hard to do I know......I pushed alot of people i cared about away because I thought they didn't think much of me, but now I think that it was me who was saying that not them.

Depression can make you behave quite erratic especially when faced with quite stressful situations. It makes you do things that you cant quite understand yourself when you are looking in retrospect (on a good day).

[Buttercup]

Thats a really good point.  Try to be honest with your GP, although that can be difficult.  I've been seeing my GP since late last year and have managed to tell her some of the truth in drips and drabs.  My GP is very understanding and says that it takes time to tell these things. 

Take Care

[justlittleoldme]

Thanks guys, I have started to write things down a little, it seems like once I start I can't stop. Today is a bad day, just seems the bad week I'm having has come to a head today, just feeling very very low and can't find any sort of motivation or anything to get me out of it. xx

[KateG]

&*(

[Munchroom]

Hi and welcome  :) I could have written most of what you did in your opening post. Definetly go and see your GP, no-one should feel like this  &*( xx

[rachjane]

hi

everything you have spoken about really hits home with me, when i was younger i was surrounded by alot of friends but as we seem to get older they dwindle away and lead their own life so i find it easier to just put on a brave face and go into my own little world where nobody needs to be bothered by my problems because im scared if i open up they might not understand where im coming from. i think writing your feelings down is a good idea or just being able to speak to people on here that understand can help. ive just made an appointment with my gp and i think it would be really good for you to do the same  &*(