Hi, newbie here

[Sweetpea]

Hope it goes ok on Tuesday at your dr's appointment.  MIND will negociate their rates if you cannot afford the £35.00 even if you are not on benefits.  But ask your gp as you may be able to get help through the nhs quite quickly.

S x

[Random]

I go to the local MIND in Mansfield, Nottingham and I pay £10/hour. I work full time on a half decent wage too.
Think pricing depends on area you live in, I have found it very useful.

[Bubblemama]

Thanx again guys for all your replies.

I am now laying in bed next to my sleeping husband wanting to cry and scream. We had a fabulous evening out last.night with some good friends of ours. I was hoping my dark feelings would disappear and I would get a good nights sleep. How wrong was I!?!. Its 5am, we have only been home 3 hours and I'm still wide awake even though I'm thoroughly exhausted. If I was on my own I would be sobbing down the phone to my dad. I just want my husband to wake up an hold me tight and make this all go away but I don't want to burden him with this. I hate this so so much. I feel so desperate now.

I'm sorry for going on a bit. I needed to get my feelings off my chest and currently I feel that here is where I want to do it as people here may know how I'm feeling.

Thanx guys, so much. All your words and help is much appreciated x

[Zaf]

Is it possible to tell your husband how much you need his support Bubblemania?

Z xxx

[Bubblemama]

I'm not sure Zaf. He does know how I feel as we've discussed it but he believes the whole issue is my issue and only I can resolve it. I love my husband do much it hurts. Some days I want to cling on to him and never let him go. I try and resist the urge of doing this as I don't want to smother him to the point that he feels I'm over the top. My whole fear of him leaving me is one of the overriding factor of my depression I think. I have been abandoned by every person who is supposed to love me so why should he be any different. I'm also finding now that I'm pushing my children away. I can't bare to be around them. Maybe is because I don't want them seeing me at the lowest point of my life. I am now at the point of not knowing how I'm ever going to carry on x

[Zaf]

Its very usual to push people away when depressed Bubblemania, its a shame your husband doesnt realse how much support you need, however much the lovely people in here help it sounds as though you need someone you can get support from 'in the flesh' so to speak.

Z xx

[Bubblemama]

Thank u Zaf. I believe that I really need counselling now. I'm sorry for pouring my heart out on here. I just gives me a little relief by getting my feelings out in the open. Thank u for all your advice Zaf xxxx

[Zaf]

You never need to apologise about pouring your heart out here Bubblemania, we all understand what its like and we all need support at times.

I have found counselling very useful in conjunction with medication, it would be well worth asking your GP if you feel it would be of benefit to you xxx

[Bubblemama]

Thanx Zaf. I shall keep that in mind for Tuesday x

[nicmci]

Hey you are not weak. Any person going through a lot in their life will be effected you have taken steps and that's brave . Its a scary time. What I did to help me too it to find out all I can about depression signs syptoms tratments etc. Also the medical side (I'm a nurse so found it easy). The chemicals I. Your brian are loweres because you have not had reason for them to be high. Therefore your brian thinks that's all you need and therefore dosnt produced enough when then better times are here.  If you have something wrong with your heart etc. You woudlnt feel as bad. But that is because society needs to change. I am not ashamed of my depression but ashamed of the ignorance around it.counselling also I found invaluable xx

[Bubblemama]

Last night I hit a new low. In fact, I'm so low I don't see the point anymore.
After spending yesterday relaxing with no children and having quality time with my husband we got all dolled up and went out with our friends. I felt good. Better than I have felt for a long time. We all got talking about things and I began to open up about my past. I then said about how my parents left me when I was growing up. They were shocked to which my husband replied 'that's why she's such a mental case' and started laughing. I wanted to scream, cry and run. That's how he sees me 'a mental case'!!!!.
I can't sleep. I want to be sick!. I want to run!. I'm desperate!

[Zaf]

It seems to me he was trying to lighten the situation, unfortunately rather clumsily, do try to speak to him about it xxx

[Buttercup]

I agree with Zaf, men aren't the most thoughtful at times!!  Alternatively, that might be the way that he is coping with what is going on, by making light of it.  My hubby is very supportive of me but I know that I am inclined to make light of my own situation, sometimes its the only way I manage.

For you  &*( &*( &*(

[Rycing]

Hello and  .>,

I felt exactly the same about medication...and I was very sceptical.....but it's worked amazingly well for me. In January my GP referred me to the community mental health team....I had an initial assessment and qualify for therapy.....I have my first appt next week....so no long wait for me luckily. But, I guess it's pot luck.

I found the 'mood gym' useful- an online tool that uses CBT. That also helped me when I was right at the start......as did the forum.  :)

 &*( xx

[Bubblemama]

 hi guys.

Just wanted to ask u a quick question. Has anyone tried counselling over the phone?
The reason I ask is because I have just found out via my medical insurance policy that I have access to a counselling hot line 24/7.