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mamalou

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Totally disconnected........
« on: March 05, 2012, 05:38:35 PM »
I am sitting here wondering how I take each breath and how I survive each moment.

I am completely isolated and totally disconnected.

My children are in the lounge chatting and playing and I am sat in a separate room unable to feel anything.

Do other people experience this ? Am I a terrible person ? I seem to have lost the ability to care anymore. I am exhausted by this depression and I can't go on anymore.

Any words of wisdom for me would be much appreciated.


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Re: Totally disconnected........
« Reply #1 on: March 05, 2012, 05:53:03 PM »
Mamalou, I often feel the same way, almost like I'm in a bubble. I have young children and feel terrible when I don't interact with them, sometimes I force myself, others I just stay in another room. No advice, sorry, just reassurance that you're not alone and your not an awful person  &*( &*( &*(

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Re: Totally disconnected........
« Reply #2 on: March 05, 2012, 06:34:40 PM »
No, you're not a terrible person, you're ill :(

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Re: Totally disconnected........
« Reply #3 on: March 05, 2012, 07:08:17 PM »
 &*( &*( you are not an awful person, its the illness which is depression making you feel this way.

I often need to be on my own too, you are not alone.

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Re: Totally disconnected........
« Reply #4 on: March 05, 2012, 11:05:27 PM »
Your not awful, I have two young boys too, I sometimes can't stand being in the same room as them not for lack of love for them, but just that they are a drain on my resources, my eldest is very understanding and keeps the younger occupied. We do really well getting through a day with our illness, so don't feel bad, you wouldn't feel bad if you had a broken leg and couldn't play with your children, we have an illness that does not mean we are not bad but our illness is the what makes us act like this.

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Re: Totally disconnected........
« Reply #5 on: March 11, 2012, 09:44:29 PM »
Yep I definitely get disconnected from life a bit especially if my friends don't bother calling me for months and even years. (it's happened) so I often find hobbies to keep me busy. I love reading (my kindle is my new best friend) and I love chilling out on forums too, to me i can't be bothered to go in a pub, so I bring the pub to me, simples! Plus I don't drink, I am naturally a tee-total I just don't get along with alcohol and plus I easily get hangover from smallest amounts. There are somedays where i am like I miss social contact but then there's other days when it gets too much and I would rather sit at home on my mac. I do find that radio and tv keeps me updated with life, although I will not watch any s*** like bargain hunt or any of that antique rubbish. it's not my thing.
keep try to succeed in life and stop thinking negatively.
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