Not been out of bed in 2 days!!

[MooMoo]

Feeling very caged in to say the least!!  "£$

I'm struggling badly with my asthma and steroid reduction process at the minute and I havent made it out of bed in 2 days because of it. As my asthma and other conditions are flared up I'm feeling like my depression is out of control. I'm going from wanting to burst into tears to wanting to punch someone!! I'm feeling so
Angry as well after my hospital apt on Friday when I came away feeling like I'd been told I was making up my symptons etc by a doc I've never seen in clinic before .... Can't seem to get this out my head and it's really bothering me now.

Don't want to feeling like this 

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you moomoo.

S x

[Zaf]

From me too &*(

Z xx

[MooMoo]

Thanks to you both x

[Ally]

I have asthma too and sometimes it gets do bad I feel like giving up. The Steroid inhalers sometimes seem to do no good what so ever.

Stick with it. make another appointment and specifically request someone else and get a second opinion....or third if you need it!
Some people that have no experience with depression really can't advise or understand how it affects us.

Bless my dad's cotton socks.... he tries with me, but really doesn't understand and I hate to worry him, so I don;t tell him everything.

Cheep your chin up. You'll get there.... we are all here to help

xxx

[MooMoo]

Hi Ally,

Thanks for the post.  I've been suffering with my asthma since October 2011 and unfortunately my other medical conditions have started to flare up during this time as well.  I'm under a chronic cough specialist, a stomach specialist, neurologist, local asthma nurse, own GP team and I'm due to have my first appointment with a chronic asthma specialist at the end of the month.  So I constantly feel like I'm always repeating myself and being pulled everywhich way and not getting any answers just more medication to try!

The appointment that pushed me over the edge on Friday was a review at the chronic cough clinic, who have also been monitoring my asthma while I've been waiting for my appointment to come through, and I didn't get to see my usual specialist but another one as the clinic was busy!  Unfortunately as it wasn't someone who knows me and the situation and that he didnt even read my damn notes, it wasnt the best of appointments.  Made worse by the fact that its an hours trip each way to get there, I came out feeling like giving up completely.  The cough team had been working through ideas on what could be causing my breathing problems at present and I'd had a test done a week before so to be told that it wasnt my asthma that was the problem and that I should just supress the cough made me want to scream.  Thankfully my boyfriend was with me and went through everything with the doctor which is why I ended up coming away with something to help surpress the cough and a 2 month review.

I'm still feeling really low and still haven't been out of bed yet ... I'm hoping that resting is also helping with my steroid reduction as I've been on a high dose since October.

Sorry for the rant, my boyfriends on nights and I'm feeling really low at the minute, alot of thoughts whirling around inside my stupid head.  Not great to check the bank balance when your feeling down especially when you realise you have no money until the end of the month! Don't even want to tell my fella that  "£"

Jilly x

[Sweetpea]

 &*( for you jilly.

S x

[Ally]

Sorry for the rant

Hey Jilly.....
Don't worry about the rant, it does us all good to vent from time to time

It is good that you had the support of your b/f when you went to your appointment. I take my g/f with me whenever I can when I have a doc's appointment. I have a tendency to forget things about what I have been doing and/or feeling and she can also give an outside perspective.

For the longest time I kept things bottled up so as not to worry my other half about how I was feeling, this eventually led to me having a "major depressive episode". That really scared the crap out of me when I calmed down a bit!

My GP asked me to go back to see him after my "Episode" and then every month after that, to have my meds and progress reviewed. The first 2 times, he had to ask me why I was there, it is only recently (i.e. yesterday) that he pre-read my notes and I didn't have to explain and wait for him to catch up..... so much for always wanting to see the same GP that is tracking my progress!!
So in that, I can understand your frustration.

Sounds like your other half is an understanding caring guy. You should sit down with him and explain all that is worrying you, even the bank balance stuff. It does you no good, mentally, to keep things bottled up.... take it from someone who has experienced the bad side of it.

If you need to chat/talk/vent or anything else, just swing by and say hi. We are all here to help.

Take care

A.
xx

[Zaf]

this is the place to have a rant, we all understand the need to do it from time to time xx

[emmietaylor]

think of it as just a little blip but take easy when you feeling better and don't push yourself it will make you feel worse. don't think about what happened the clinic.