as the title says i think theres a thread where i mention this, and it's been playing on my mind thinking about it all the time, My solicitor knows via e-mail, my dr knoes via an appoint right after the event and my councilor knows as i was on a 8 week course at the time. and my wife knows but TBH apart from the e-mail she wrote to the solicitor it was just one more piece of &$%+ on top of all the rest.
but its getting to me it came right out of the blue,
she asked me what i do to cope with the pain and apart from the medication and my variation of ti che we as a family go to church every sunday and try to go tuesdays as well.
i said i get alot of siritual comfort for my pain, she was nodding and smirking a little, then right out of the blue she said
"well if you get that much help from god why don't you commit suicide and be reincarnated and come back as a proper human all fixed"
i just froze then she comes over to me as i am waiting on the bed to be examined and shes says a bit sheepishy head cocked to one side have you tried to commit suscide before, i said what do your notes say.
which i have tried.
then she went on to abuse me and by twisting a pulling my body pushing it, pushing my head down being really nasty, and not stopping when i asked, i just wanted to get out as fast i as could which meant being compliant, her hands had a strong grip and i could not get her off my back, i am nearly 6 foot and 16 stone but she had me i agony, and i this has been playing on my mind,
going to see My Dr on Monday for a general health check i will mention it again.
i keep getting flash backs of it what are these i can be doing something anything then it just there that moment her face , and i get the 2 bastards who did this to me along in there with her i it's like i am stunned and i want to hide. is this right. if i am in the car i just pull over anywhere and sit, then as quick as it comesit's gone.
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