i feel a lack of motivation and just want to "be" sometimes, why car't the world let me "Be". TBH i think all people are like dogs with bone just what bone is personal to you, Motivation, Career,family,Children,work, socializing, living a demanding life, sometimes i people watch when i am out sitting down having a hot chocolate, in the middle of the shopping center,
i look at all the people passing by, they start getting faster and faster, my brain taking in all that's going on, there like steam trains coming at you branching off at the last moment, even though i am behind a barrier i still feel exhausted looking at them, talking. laughing, on mobiles, kids in tow, pushing strollers, shopping bags bursting, ques waiting for service, lifts going up and down, salesmen and women selling electric when they don't want to, charity's shaking there tins, people with ID cards round the neck looking important, the clanging of the coffee maker, the aroamer of coffee, people turning round walking laughing arguing. then i multiply by it by zooming out of the shopping center in my mind like Google earth with me still as the center spot i can see it clearly in my head and x what i am seeing by the next center of shop i have this ability to know whats demographic to my area in the north west and i can see it all disappearing as i go off into space. but i leave it there and never zoom back in, just return quicky to my seat with a whouuuuuuussssshhhhhhhh
thats just in 10 mins of watching .................few
