Well I went out and it was as I had expected, wall to wall happy laughy people, forced fun, and because of a selfish bunch of people who had reserved a table with their coat (and didnt sit on it all night) we had to gatecrash a table right next to the loo (my friend has broken her ankle so we needed a seat for her as she is in plaster) and I was getting frustrated with people keep wanting to come past (had to keep moving, was like I was dancing with myself just to get out of everyone's way).
Anyway I sat there clock watching for the whole evening till I could get back into my bed and rest, was the slowest 4 hours ever!!! I don't drink as that can make me feel worse and sometimes set off a panic attack so I tend to steer clear of drink (never been a big one for drink anyway).
I was remembering how things had changed over the last 16 months and the how person I used too be seems to have vanished into thin air.
Anyway, things have got to change this year, I am not going to give depression much more of my life, I need to eradicate it from my life......just not sure how I can do it
Anyway, sorry to waffle on, I hope this year brings us all a good year xx
