New, and having a crisis......

[Zaf]

You are doing well :)   It takes me a lot longer to get outside when the panic attacks and agorophobia strike

[Desperado99]

Thanks Zaf, I'm trying 

I'm not comfortable in shops and stuff, but I know I have to get on with it........ I'm trying to push my boundaries (but not too quickly,) but on the plus side, I'm not spending any money in the sales  £$%

One of my bosses visited me today (mainly to see when I'm coming back, but with the best intentions, she brought me flowers). I'm planning on going back next week (first day will be weds) It's a short week only three hours rather than the usual six, so I can ease myself back into it. As work has never been a stressful thing, I don't think I should have any problems going back (fingers crossed). As I said to her, I just needed to let absolutely everything go before I could start to get better.

[Zaf]

You really seem to be taking a very sensible approach which is great :)

Its also fantastic you have such an understanding boss, I hope all goes well when you get back to work.

Dont forget you may have the occasional blip when things seem to go a tiny bit backwards but on the whole you will keep making progress xx

[Desperado99]

Bit fed up today, although some of that was a poor nights sleep last night.

Hubby goes back to work tomorrow, so it's just me and my daughter home alone tomorrow..... and I can feel myself getting anxious about that. It'll be the first day he's been at work since I became poorly. And then of course after that, I have to do the school run/work on weds which will be my first 'normal' day (schedule wise).

I'd been feeling so much better over the last week (I'm nowhere near as bad as I was) I'd almost tricked myself into believing it had just been a short-lived aberration..........

And of course, I've got the 'councilling' on friday....... not looking forward to it, but if it helps.......

And of course, I'm still on the meds........ only 14 days in, so I'm not sure if they've kicked in (supposed to take three weeks)........

BUT I have coped today, I've done stuff (although I skipped the cinema - 'Chipwrecked', but that may be because it sounds rubbish), I've taken the xmas decs down and cleaned.

I just want the new term to start, so everything can get back to usual routine....... and then I suppose, I'll really know how well I am.