What category do I fall into?

[dlg78]

As the title states really, I'm struggling to understand what is exactly wrong with me.

I joined up here seeking some comfort and people to talk to, but quite quickly convinced myself everyone elses problems were more serious than my own and that I was actually doing ok, I didn't feel part of the group - I never have felt part of any group if truth be told.

Then it hit me again, out of nowhere my mood drops like a stone, the slightest thing sets me off and this time I have been wanting solitude for several days now, I have shunned my girlfriend, not spoken to my family and am dreading having to return to work tomorrow.

I won't go to see the doctor as I know that in a few days I will convince myself to not go as I am "doing ok", putting on a smile and being friendly to those at work, and I will be ok again for a while I guess, until January hits home.

I sit in the house battling anxiety, watching the hours while away not really doing anything, getting angry with myself that I have wasted my free days, this cycle repeats itself day after day and I don't know what to do anymore. I worry about everything, but am not actually sure where the anxiousness actually comes from.

I am so tired of it all, makes me want to run away somewhere.

[Zaf]

you really do need to convince yourself that going to the doctor will help you get a proper diagnosis and start on the road to recovery xx

[Got]

Hi mate, you do belong on this forum. You are having bad feelings and you want relief. We all feel like this. I think this forum is a place were people with bad feelings can support each other. It doesn't matter if you have any reason to feel this way....the fact is that you do feel like this, and you wish to get better.

[tharidler]

i'm so sorry to hear you are struggling i think one of the first battles is getting help i know i took a long time because if my mood lifted it was easy to explain the other things away and convince myself nothing was reall wrong or that i was getting better these are all coping mechanisms whether we realise it or not and one day i wasn't able to rationalise and explain things away and that was when i made the steps to get help so i would say please go and speak to the doctor at least they may be able to help to explain some things to you and if you feel on that day a bit better still go because the worst you will do is waste a few minutes of their time but  i doubt if this will be the case

[SteveW]

I wouldn't get too hung up on a diagnosis. Plenty of people enter therapy not because they are suffering from a psychiatric illness but because they are unhappy with their lives and don't seem to be able to turn things around through their own efforts. They are just as much in need of help as someone with a defined illness.But Zaf is right about the GP. They are your doorway to most of the available services. If you want to check out a possible diagnosis,try seeing if you fit the criteria listed in this page 

    http://gad.about.com/od/symptoms/a/dsmiv.htm

[doublep]

Hi,

Go see a GP about this as soon as you can.

I have been like what you have described for years, and only ended up going to the GP about 6-7 weeks ago after a friend basically made me do it when she realised that I was putting on a front all the time, and noticed a few of my meltdowns.

You might think in a few days time, you'll be thinking your "ok" but then you'll end up going through the same old cycle again.

Paul

[lbruk]

yep, see your GP, unfortunately the longer you leave it the worse it can potentailly get, I was in denial for at  least 6 months, probably more, if i had gone sooner it would have been a much simpler process for me to get better without spending 3 months in a psychiatric hospital!