I feel a bit strange typing this on here, but maybe somebody can help. For the last year I've been feeling really down all the time for many reasons really. Firstly I feel down because I've been applying for job after job after job to no avail, and it's driving me mad. I feel sad as I don't know why I can't seem to get a break. I'm a supply teacher at the moment, and when I'm working on supply lots schools always seem to rate me, and think I'm good, therefore request me back again, yet I don't understand why I can't get a more permanent job? I'm just 25 and still live at home, this bugs me a lot too, feel like a loser as I can't afford to move out with having no job, and just got dumped on boxing day by a guy who I love so much, and even he couldn't tell me why, he put it down to him being selfish and likes being on his own, and I've done nothing wrong, and I'm the perfect girlfriend, so that's even more confusing. The thing that hurts the most is I broke up with this same guy around Christmas last year too, as he just didn't seem to want to spend any time with me, then we kept bumping into one another and he wanted to be with me again back in August this year, but a couple of months before that thought he would use me for one thing only even though he knew I was in love with him. So I've had my heart broken twice by the same guy at the same time of year, and it all feels like deja vu all over again. I think I feel so bad because I see what other people my age have now and I have none of that.......Nothing! These all seem so superficial worries I know, but I just feel so alone all the time, and don't know what to do.
