hey im new

[casper1]

hi, just thought id introduce myself

names ryan, 19 years old,

iv had a pretty tough upbringing, still bothers me about things that happend in the past, been self harming since 9 years old
diagnosed with depression at 16, given citalopram, did nothing but make me fat and worse, ended up having a overdose from many different drugs

im into sports at the moment, and if anything thats whats making me so depressed.

id love to meet ppl in similar experiances, and would really love 2 just talk 2 ppl.

[Ezel]

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I do understand about the self harming as I did that from the ages of 19 through till I was 43 years old which is the same age I was finally 'officially' diagnosed with depression.  Before then I knew I was depressed - from early teens - but was told constantly by my parents that I was attention seeking and just moody.  It was the only way I could cope with letting out the pain.  It was a combination of being depressed and not knowing how to deal with it and because I had been bullied and coerced into surrendering my son.  We reunited in 2004 but then I had to deal with the damage adoption had done to my son.  He has had a very good upbringing and is loved but has major issues with adoption.  What made it worse was him finding out I had wanted to raise him yet he believed I hadn't all his life.  Before then he believed I wanted him adopted.  He found my parents who continued the lies right down to telling him they didn't know where I was for 5 years - lovely family I have.

[junior]

Welcome to the forum ryan

[lightenup]

A warm welcome to the forum :)

[casper1]

Thanks for the replies
to be honest i didnt think id get any so thank u

i feel at breaking point, and im glad to know im not the only person

[MINDFUL HELP]

Thanks for the replies
to be honest i didnt think id get any so thank u

i feel at breaking point, and im glad to know im not the only person

Hello Ryan, a warm welcome to the site, and if you ever want a chat just let me know... it's amazing what happens when we chat to people.

all the best
John @ Mindful Help

[bel]

Hi ryan. Welcome.
bel