Hello Kevin,Im a newbie on here,just read your post & felt gutted for you,i also see things that i too am finding difficult to except. Anything i used to put my mind to,i would succeed at,i was an amateur boxer from 7 to 24 won numerous titles,represented young england,captained senior england squad. I worked in the leisure industry & worked my way up to a managerial position,i decided to do the knowledge (london black cabbie) & passed in 3 years,i was married to school sweetheart & depression stripped it all away,i had to sell brand new cab in 2002,i had already resigned from leisure center,2003 my wife left me after 15 years together & my journey with depression started. 11 years on & i have no social life (stopped drinking 2010) & i got sick of making up excuses as to why i didn't want to go out with friends,i threw my mobile away. Im 42 & the highlight of my day is doing a crossword =+- no girlfriend for over 3 years,this disease has enveloped my life & i have times of feeling pretty desperate. Im fed up with trying courses,joining dating sites,holidaying alone & being isolated. Sorry i can't be of more help,but just to let you know,you're not alone mate,best wishes marlon
