i don't want to be me

[matlondon]

I don't want to be me, i can't stand the place i live, i had enough and wish i was never born.  i have no life, live in a dump unable to progress and it's getting worse. tried to find alternative accommodation but as i don't work it's impossible tried to see of i could get a social home but being a single male no one seems to care, trying to put on a strong face.
the place i live in has so many bad memories that its making my life feel like a nightmare.  Sometimes  i wonder why can't i walk into a hospital and ask for them to put me down.

[Zaf]

Has something happened to trigger these feelings Mat?

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Feel for you Matt, are you getting medical help?

S x x

[KateG]

Mat could you GP support you in your application for social housing?

[matlondon]

They have tried, the council just reject it, i was even thinking of squatting a place that i've kept my eyes on, as i just can't stand this current place people don't seem to understand, this place has brought me bad luck and is continuing to do so. The trigger is i wasting my life, seeing it get worse i have a good education but my ocd and depression due to the place i live in.
 i'm running to my GP with chest pains was sent to a cardio consultant everything is fine they say.
I was on medication but it seemed to make things worse, it would make me feel the presences of dead people outside my front door at night.

[Zaf]

Have you tried any type of alternative medication or counselling Mat?  Its horrible to feel trapped or stuck in a rut

Z xx

[Sweetpea]

Have you got a MIND centre near to you?  They will be able to help with counselling and they could also offer help with housing etc.

S x x