Newbie here....

[princessd2011]

Hello Everyone

I am 25 years old and have been suffering with depression for the last year, started off mild and now it seems to be getting worse. I have been offered counselling through my GP, in which I went to the first 2 appointments, but felt it didn't help me.

At the moment I am not on any medication, because I am scared of taking medicines that make you dosey or not with it, so to say. My GP is brilliant and always advises me to keep coming back to see her every so often, but I haven't been back as of yet, as I feel stupid in talking to my GP.....

At the moment I am having strange dreams, not sleeping well, feeling sick and dazed (as if I am not with it) but I do suffer from BPPV (Vertigo Disorder) and they can be some of the same symptoms as well, so don't know if it is that or the depression as I have never suffered from depression before. Can anyone help?

I am due to get married soon in October 2011 and even that don't make me happy or feel on top of the world. Everything I do is like 'what is the point' or just don't want to do things at all. All I do is cry most of the time at home and hardly go out. My oh works all the time, so rarely get to see him and I got made redundant over 2 years ago and still not found any work....I don't know what it is and feeling strange and weird is doing my head in, to the point where I just cry to try and make it stop, do i sound weird or is this normal?

Thanks for listening

[Munchroom]

Hi  :) Welcome to the forums

It's horrible being out of work.... When we are working we dream of having a few days at home with not much to do, but then when those few days turn into weeks, months, years... it can really get you down - without having depression on top!

Insomnia, vivid dreams and feeling dazed can be linked with depression. Please don't feel stupid about going to your doctor with this, they are there to help. Also don't rule out anti-depressants - I was very wary, but once you find the right ones they can just give you that little lift so that not everything feels so big and scary! Just makes everything a little bit more manageable...

Crying all the time isn't weird, its awful for you - but its good to let it out. Have you thought about doing any sort of volunteer work? It probably seems very big and daunting, but just one or two mornings a week somewhere could just give you a little lift - and it will look brilliant on your C.V 

Take care x

[princessd2011]

Thanks for the advice

I am posting this time in the morning because I have been feeling horrible today, feeling sick, can't sleep and hearing my voice repeat words from during the day etc....in my head and my body will not let me go sleep! it's doing my head in and I am feeling like I am becoming worse, because when you research that on the internet it comes up with 'schizophrenia' which has got my really worried that I may be turning to be like that, even though I do not have sucicidal thoughts or hear other people's voices in my head!!! It's weird what the brain can do.

I just want to be normal again, like I used to be....Why do I feel like this?

Think I need to go back to my GP, but I feel scared incase they think I am mad and lock me up lol

Thanks for the advice again x

[Munchroom]

Believe me I went to the doctors because I was suicidal, not eating, not sleeping.... and they didn't lock me up!  

Your GP is there to just get you in the right direction - I was put in touch with the local mental health team who carried out an assessment and although they are based locally and have an in-patients ward, I was never admitted, it was never even suggested! So please don't be put off from going by that thought alone.

xx