I so want to vent!

[chocsrus]

Pressure is building up causing a lump of pain inside and I need to release it but can't seem to have the words to use.  Yesterday took a nosedive because of a small lyric in a supposedly motivational song.   I agree with the sentiments of the song but it took me back to square 1 and "No, I hate me, there is no point in being alive".  All day seemed to be triggersome resulting in self-harm, hostility, anger, frustration, tears, the works.  At my anxiety group meeting last night just normal, everyday conversations seemed to fuel the tension inside. 

I just can't seem to release this pressure.

[Pip]

It is horrible feeling like, been there a few times over the years.  Can you write down how you are feeling?

Or do you feel you could cope with ringing either the Samaritans or MIND?

[stewart]

Hi  chocsrus,
it is indeed an difficult situation when something as a few lines of a song, or even the entire song can cause emotional pain, the same can happen with a tv show or movie.
As Pip says about writing down how you are feeling, even on here, you can start a journal in ‘Our Private Space’ only members can access this section, so you can say things and get a serious response from others and how they deal with things.

Also, as Pip has said, try MIND, they have great support workers who listen and understand.

[chocsrus]

I've written it down in an email to the Samaritans now.  I've been in touch with them quite a bit over the last couple of months.

I might do the journal.  Feel so bad as I get so worked up by the most trivial of things.  It's likely to sound like a me, me, me post.  I know I should think differently, doesn't make it happen though.

[stewart]

Hi chocsrus,
good call making cpntact with the Samaritans, be it by email or phone.

dont worry about how your posts sound, even if its just to let of steam / get things off ya chest,
when suffering with depression things are not trivial at all, those that say they are trivial have no idea how depresion can make us feel.

[Pip]

It's okay to do me, me, me posts  as stewart has pointed out.  I'm glad you have managed to email the Samaritans.