Hi new to all of this..
I'm 18, work full time in a good job have no real major problems (e.g. family passing, money troubles etc.) so my life's not really that bad.
However for the past 12/18 months every single day has been hell, I think about killing myself every single day it's ridiculous I am always feeling depressed even when something good happens the high quickly fades, if it was not for my mum I'm almost certain I would have gone through with it (It would destroy her If I did.)
I thought I'd get by with it as I don't really like asking for the help and don't want people to find out, but the past month has gotten significantly worse for no reason and it has really started to affect my life, I've gotten in trouble with work for being late as I just don't want to get out of bed, don't want to socialize with people and would prefer to be on my own.
I've seen my G.P and he's not prescribing me any more anti-depressants and instead referred me to psychosocial therapy, which I'm not to keen on especially as where I work many of my clients also go to this place..
It's horrible I just want it stop and get on with my life, compared to other people's mines pretty good, so why am I like this grrr.