Hi,
I'm Rob.
I was diagnosed with "major depression" for want of a tag about 6-7 years ago now, although it had probably been lurking for some years prior to that. No one specific cause and nothing that you can put a finger on to say, yep, those were significant. I am fortunate to have a supportive GP and am also getting psychiatric help. I've been through a number of medications, including prozac, citalopram (+zopiclone), citalopram + quetiapine and am currently taking mirtazapine. I've had CBT - with some results, but can't seem to keep the beast at bay. I was fit, but am now fat (partly due to mirt. but mostly due to 2 years of my life on citalopram+quetiapine which left me devoid of any emotion). I am now in a (slightly) better place, but I'm looking for any hints and tips to help get going again. My psychiatrist tells me what I already know, but putting that into effect is the hard part. I know it's all down to me. I get that. That doesn't make it any easier. I'm currently split/confused where one aspect says to hell with it all, grow fat, so what, whereas the other part of me still wants to get fit (I think) and pick up where I left off. Trying to resolve that conflict is the difficult part - I need to find something new to motivate me - the old activities just don't get the endorphines going any more.
So that's me. Hi everybody.
