Newbie here. Looking to speak to those who understand..

[EmmaLouise210]

Hi Everyone.

I'm Emma. I was told by my doctor about a year and a half ago that i had mild/moderate depression and I was put on medication. The medication really helped and at my most recent appointment the decision was made to lower the dosage.

I am much better than I used to be but I still find i have the odd (as i tend to call them) "sessions"

I find myself crying on and off for hours and feeling very lonely. I had one of these "sessions" last night. I've never seriously considered hurting myself before but was on the verge of it last night.

I feel really guilty after one of my crying sessions as compared to a lot of people's situations in life I am very fortunate. But when I get in a mood like that I just can't help but feel so unhappy that I don't know what to do with myself.

I suppose I just wanted to put this post up to find out if other people experience this often, and to be able to talk to people that understand as I don't think any of my family or friends would.

Hope to speak to some of you and get to know you.

[FreyaD]

Hi Emma,

I haven't been here in a while but after a rubbish couple of months and a medicine change I've had a very lonely weekend and found myself back here, just reading..

I too am very fortunate and there is no reason for my depression, a down for me comes out the blue like a tonne of bricks. Before my depression I would see people who had self harmed and wondered how it could ever get so bad that self harm is an option, but now I understand! It's a slippery slope.. My family don't know about my depression and hiding the cuts from them is hard, my best friends also don't understand.

I completely understand where you're coming from, as will most people here, I don't really know what else to say, except people on these forums understand and will be here for you when you need them most

xx

[Zaf]

Hi Emma  *()

Depression isn't choosy, it can strike the rich and famous, those of us that feel fortunate or those that are going through awful lives.

Have you thought about going back to your doctor to tell him/her how you've been feeling?  Its possible you need the dose put back up

Z xxx

[dave208]

Welcome remember you are with friends here, depression can strike anyone no matter what their background is.  *()

[stewart]

Hi Emma, welcome to the forums.

you have nothing to feel guilty about, we each express our feelings in our own way and crying can be like an outlet for those emotions.

[Pip]

Hi and welcome  +-_

[Catbrian]

Welcome Emma.  I agree with the others; very often we don't need any reason to become depressed.  I hope you find the Forum helpful.