New to the forum, not to depression

[Chippers82]

Im new here, only just discovered this website etc.
i have suffered with depression and anxiety since my teens. Ive hit rock bottom previously, i tried to commit suicide by overdose three times, but i always managed to pull myself out of it . This time around ive been suffering since my pregnancy, my son is now nearly two. I ave been on Citalopram for the past teo and half months and it doesnt seem to be having much effect. The dosage has increased to 40mg and i still feel so low and i dont sleep. Its affecting my relationship with my husband and my son and then i feel even worse because the guilt kicks in then. I cant sleep and that makes everything so much harder, i feel at my wits end with it because nothing seeems to be working thus time. Ive never been on so high a dosage before or felt so bad for so long. I barely manage to pull ,yself together two days a week when i have to look after my son but the rest of the time i hardky function. I have been signed off work so i at least dont have to worry about that but it cant last forever, we cant afford for me to not have a job.
I wish i knew what to do to make myself better.

[stewart]

Hi Chippers, welcome to the forums, the lack of good sleep can often make things worse, unfortunatly the 40 mg of citalopram is the max dose they can give now, but they can give you other meds in addition to citalopram, mirtazapine is a common one, this can also help with sleep.
ask your doc about this, and tell them how you fee..

[Pip]

 :welcome:  It seems like it is a vicious circle for you at the moment but you will get support here as we all understand how crippling depression can be,

[Grace]

Hello Chippers!! Are you being followed by a psychiatrist? Have you tried describing your condition at the moment?
You're not alone out there, many of us go through rough times, but at least we need to make sure to have good medical care in order to know that some light at the end of the tunnel will eventually appear!

Cheers!!
Grace

[Chippers82]

No i dont have a psychiatrist, my doctor is aware of how i feel but medication is all i have at the moment.

[Grace]

I don't know how the health service works in your area however I think that a specialist may be able to change your medication ...... in fact even the GP can but may not be so fine-tuned as a psychiatrist.
I'm really sorry to hear you're feeling so low ..... the time of the year also does not help with shorter days and less light!
Grace