depressed

[ethil6]

does this forum really work... I think I've suffered years with depression, but only this year accepted that I was ill..I'm struggling all the time, sometimes I feel I want to give up..only because I'm really so tired and cant see my way out.. I have attempted to take my own life..but was somewhat saved.. the Crisis Mental Health Team then got involved...medication was changed from citlopran to mirtazapine and sleep pills which I'm not in control of...but still I feel the same really down...all i think about is when will this end..the family bickering, telling me how things should or should be..14 yr old daughter dictating her terms... I keep thinking what about me what rights to I have in this family, don't I have a say after all its been preached that we are all equal ......

[ParsnipPierre]

This forum I find really beneficial because you are surrounded by fellow sufferers who understand what you are going through cos a lot of my friends don't truly get it.Really sorry to hear about your situation and the fact that you attempted to take your own life.  I take 45mg mirtazapine as it got increased last week so am hoping it kicks in.  How long have you been on mirtazapine for?I feel trapped in my life and just want this to end but i somehow live to exist another day.I'm on the counselling waiting list with my local well womens centre and am looking at about a 6week wait which can't come soon enough.i had to accept that tablets alone wouldn't make me better and am going down the counselling route as much as i am dreading it.Have you considered counselling?
PP

[SteveW]

I hope you don't mind a note from me. I used to be a Child Care Social Worker and it was "14 year old dictating her terms" that did it, not with me they didn't.  You are the one suffering but it seems like your family may be malfunctioning. Crisis Teams are good but I haven't met one that really went in for family therapy involving children. Are the Crisis Team attempting to make child behaviour changes ? It isn't really their field and you could possibly benefit from some Social Services Child Care Team Input. It is their game.I'm sure the Crisis Team would refer you.

Just because you are the one showing the symptoms doesn't mean you are the root of the problem. You are a part of a functioning system not an isolated individual. That is the only problem with drug therapy and individual counselling, they attempt to treat you, not your social context as well. It is not "do you have a say" If you have a partner the pair of you define the terms.

You can get support here, and I sincerely hope you do. You just have to keep posting, people will reply. I'm sure that 14 year olds who think they are 25 will have been encountered before.

Love

Steve

[stewart]

Hi ethil6, teenageers are always the ones who think they are right, (remember back when we were young)

as for'does this forum really work' it does help some people yes, just having a place to put down your thoughts and ask questions from people in the same place. there is 'Our private space' where only members can see what you say, so keeping a journal helps some people.

as for docs, you may be lucky and have a good one who listens to you, but some docs are mostly working from books and case studies, everyone is different, just as some meds work for some and not others.

[ethil6]

Im on 30mg martazipane increasing next wk to 45mg , im already seeing counselling since April... its just as I am reaching a goal something or someone distracts me from ever reaching my goal..which is to get better..yet my thoughts are different.. as for Social Worker... Im not sure what they have planned as yet as the case is New..

[SteveW]

Hope the extra Mirtazepine pays dividends. It isn't at its most sedative at 45mg but I still hope you get decent sleep on it.

Hope the counselling continues to help you. I hope you find a solution to the problems that prevent you reaching your goals. That seems pretty crucial.

[Pip]

 :welcome: yes the forum can help even if it is jut knowing that others understand.  With the Our Private Space board when members get up to 10 posts then your member group will change so you can see it.

[stewart]

hi ethil6, dont worry too much if the mit's dont work well for you, there are plenty of other meds out there, and sometimes it needs to be a combination of tablest do help, even if they just take the edge off things it can help.