Good evening, urm ok a little something about me, I was diagnosed with Depression years ago and have suffered on and off, i've had different anti depressants over the years and done the CBT malarky, i also suffer with Anxiety, health anxiety, self harm and mild OCD.
I have been on Citalopram for about a year this time and doing well on it, a few weeks back i accidently went cold turkey, i ran out of pills and just thought oh well it'll be alright, it was not at all, i took a real nose dive, for a few weeks there it was hideous, crying all the time and all the usual, im back on the pills again now but still not my numb self, i dont know if i have to wait the normal 6 odd weeks for them to kick in again as i was only off them for a month or so, im just tring to wait for it to get better.
So im here for a little company and some kind words from people that understand, i have no one to talk to about this stuff, my boyfriend trys to understand and he probably does more than i give him credit for but there are things i cant share with him because i dont want to upset him, my family really dont get it even though my dad suffers as well my mum just says 'yeah but your dad actually has something to be depressed about', i cant confide in friends, i've alreay lost friends because they couldn't handle the woe is me bit and the self obsession and over analysing, i know it's difficult and infuriating for people that dont suffer, and i dont want to bore anyone and have people think im attention seeking which people really do even if they dont say it.
So anyway, i hope ill be happy here :)
