I think that I want to return to religion, but I have issues....
Over the past year, I have been thinking more and more about God and religion. I know that faith brings people comfort and can help them through dark times.
The problem I have is that my mum died when I was 3 and my 2 brothers were younger than me (1 and the other a few months old)
I remember pretty much everything that happened that day. I was raised catholic and everyone has told me that God chose her for a reason and taken her to a better place.
The question I have is what better place is there for a mother to be than with her children? Especially with them being so young.
I have never wanted to talk to anyone, i.e. a priest, about my concerns as I am scared that I might talk them out of their faith and beliefs! That is not something that I would want to be responsible for.
The other problem is that, 5 or 6 years ago, I was going through a rough time (mainly recently diagnosed with depression, partner lied to me about being pregnant) I went to a church service and when they were reading from the bible, all I could think was that they were contridicting each other, both in the sermon and the scripture. If they can't even agree with what they say in their holy text, then what hope is there for me who is looking at renewing their faith!
I am not going to just jump into this again. I will have to do a bit more research before I decide what I am going to do.
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