I am :happy0064:
Well I am obese anyway but I am struggling as I don't have any will power, nor has Rick. We belong to a health club so we don't have any excuse for not exercising. Knowing someone else who wants to lose weight will help me get more motivation.
I am okay with portion sizes as I have got down to child portions it's the nibbling between meals where I fail, This year I'm determined to eat healthy snacks.
We recently joined up with Bannatyne health club which has a good gym plus a spar area which has a steam room, sauna, jacuzzi and pool and I enjoy swimming. Of course having a dog and now a puppy it encourages us to go out for walks. We live on the outskirt of town so there are plenty of routes we can walk.
If you haven't already seen my post on Craig's thread go to it as I posted a pic of Sam and Cassie I took this evening. Sam is very sociable simply because he comes with me when I am volunteering and Cassie goes with Rick. She gets spoiled and Sam does as well as the shop is his property. The customers at both shops love seeing the dogs so they go to see the dogs and end up buying stuff.
Our pets are keeping me going as my mood has been in a good level to rock bottom but instead of being honest here I've put on my mask and pretended everything is okay. Trust is a huge problem for me which Rick understands and it's because of him that I started opening up in 2004 / 2005. It's because of that I 'woke up to myself' that I was forced to admit that yes I suffer with depression, OCD and eventually PTSD.
Rick likes bananas which is good and we rarely eat takeaways so I'm trying to get him to think of his health. He had a heart attack in about Nov 2015 and he already knew he had angina. He is quick to complain about twinges in his chest and stress makes it worse but I'm at that point of telling him he brings it upon himself which is true. You can do the same with Steve - stand up to him and tell him he either supports you or your money goes on what you want. Make a stand,
I'm ashamed of myself as I had all good intentions to try and post here at least once a day :angel: .
Okay, Rick is a nightmare with snacks as he has loads of crisps, chew sweets - Aldi's equivilent to chewitts and suck like, marshmallow type biscuits, chocolate and so on, he even has a box of hula hoops which hasn't even been opened. I have absolutely no desire to touch any of his snacks but then I can be a bit fussy what I eat. For example I don't eat crisps very often as I was diagnosed with high blood pressure (210 / 160) in 2009 so immediately I cut down on my salt intake so I find crisps very salty generally. Sometimes I will have a packet but it isn't the norm. My stumbling block are Haribo sweets mainly and chocolate a couple of times a week which is a lot of chocolate to me. We were given a few boxes of biscuits for Christmas and a box of shortbread which is my weakness.
It doesn't seem a huge deal but for me it is as I put weight easily. I'm trying to keep up with my fluids to help me feel full up for longer, I don't have sugar in hot drinks as I stopped when I was about 14 back in the 1970's when there was a sugar shortage. Trying to eat at regular times is difficult and often I miss breakfast.
A positive is I have started swimming regularly and have started increasing the lengths I do last week. I'm up to 14 lengths of a 20 metre pool which I'm pleased with but I have the goal of doing at least 11 miles for Swim 22 but want to do the full 22 miles..
Yesterday, I let myself down a bit by having a cream victoria sponge :angel: but it did have a slice of fresh strawberry on the top and it was nice to have a treat. In the evening I had beef curry and I made sure I drank plenty during the day.
Today I haven't eaten which is bad and only had one coffee so far but that's more to do with Rick ringing me so much will he was out and I was trying to catch up on things I've been meaning to do. My mood isn't helping as when it's this bad I don't feel hungry. I will probably grab something so as I'm volunteering and need to go to the post office so when I do that I can get a snack. Tonight at some point I will do myself a fresh fruit and / or veg smoothie as they're always great when I don't feel hungry or when I'm ill. It's stress causing the problem with my mood but I know this can be sorted with time. I am thinking about having a telephone appointment with my GP though plus I have got to have a repeat blood test done. I'm a bit wary of f2f appointments due to being told I had a heart murmur recently. It's only because I am stressed and I don't want to worry about stress prolonging this, the murmur in itself isn't anything to worry about. You know, that vicious circle that I don't want to get into :biggrin: .
Forgot to mention I start my swim in three days time and realised I actually have about four months to do it in so that's taken even more pressure off. Getting fitter is an added bonus.
Sorry I haven't been posting, my mood has been all over the place the past week or so. Swimming is the one thing that is helping me keep going as my eating habits have got bad again as I'm not eating enough.