It is a good drug, Icelolly, but strong. It does feel like you are drunk but all your anxiety just disappears.
With regards to this doctor coming out tomorrow, well I feel a bit hemmed in. He is getting paid by the company to assess me so I wonder how impartial he will be. But then again I don't care anymore, I really don't. I've absolutely buggered my life up because of my inability to get along with people. It's just been a pretence all these years trying to be something I'm not. I make enemies wherever I go and that's not because I actively try to do that but it just seems to happen. Must be because I am shy; noisy people don't like shy people because they can't suss them out, always think we're up to something. I love quiet people. There is a sense of mystery about them, what goes on in their head that we'll never hear. So yes I like being a mystery to people. Noisy people are easy to work out, you only have to be in their company for 5 mins to get them. They're boring as well, always yacking and trying to be the centre of attention, questioning everyone's motives, and always looking for the slightest fault in something. My mum, who is quiet, always said empty vessels make the most noise, quite true. I don't like noisy people.
Here's to all the quiet, shy, people, of the planet. Silent, maybe, but the best thinkers the World will ever have! $%$