10-02-2026, 06:29 AM
I've been diagnosed with psychotic depression and the one and only reason it wasn't diagnosed a schizophrenia was because I wasn't hearing things.
I think I am now though, from my neighbour, through our paper-thin walls and I dunno if it really is music that I can hear pretty much constantly from 6am every day or I'm now verging on schizophrenia instead of psychotic depression.
I'd always thought that "hearing things" meant in your head but this feels very external and I can only ever hear it when I'm sat on the sofa totally alone. The instant I stand up the music disappears and I can't usually hear it while I'm doing my laps or exercises, it really is when I'm totally alone, sat on the sofa, using my computer.
I don't hear it outside or when I'm at my SIL's house or when I'm with Fergus, it really is only when I'm totally alone, sitting on my sofa, using my computer and it feels like it's external rather than in my head.
Am I going loopy or schizophrenic or am I just lonely please?
I think I am now though, from my neighbour, through our paper-thin walls and I dunno if it really is music that I can hear pretty much constantly from 6am every day or I'm now verging on schizophrenia instead of psychotic depression.
I'd always thought that "hearing things" meant in your head but this feels very external and I can only ever hear it when I'm sat on the sofa totally alone. The instant I stand up the music disappears and I can't usually hear it while I'm doing my laps or exercises, it really is when I'm totally alone, sat on the sofa, using my computer.
I don't hear it outside or when I'm at my SIL's house or when I'm with Fergus, it really is only when I'm totally alone, sitting on my sofa, using my computer and it feels like it's external rather than in my head.
Am I going loopy or schizophrenic or am I just lonely please?
