Hello.
I have been through a terrible time recently and now I want to get better. I came out of a relationship two years ago, and since then I have been very unhappy. I wasn't properly happy before the relationship breakup, but that was because of work problems. I was very sick in hospital one year ago with a virus. It tool me a while to get over it but I started to get my strength back and started to feel a bit happier, and I started a new relationship.
Things went badly wrong with my carreer through no fault of my own, and one of my best freinds died. I became more and more stressed and stopped sleeping. I began drinking whiskey to help me sleep, and for some reason I just kept on drinking. I was so completly drunk that i threw my girlfriend over, and now I have lost her. She had become my best friend and I love her very much, I would never dream of hurting her in a million years, and I do not know why I did it..I had lost control. I feel very guilty at how I have hurt her. Now I am very unhappy and depressed. I became suicidal, although fortunatly that has passed.
I am devestated I have lost my relationship and I feel depressed everyday. I know psycologically I need to look to the furture, but I am struggling to see that I can ever be happy. I really do feel as if I have lost everything, but I will try to fight this every single day, until I can one day feel positive again and the pain dissapears.
Steve X