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Rich

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not so new
« on: September 14, 2011, 10:59:04 PM »
Hi all...I joined the forum a couple of years ago but wasn't really up to writing stuff and just sort of sat on the edge watching for a while. Thought I was better but my black dog seems to have tagged along again. I'm self employed and work from home, buying and selling antiques, great job but quite lonely. I'll probably be here a lot...its good to know there are other people with depression...Er...that sounds soooooo wrong! Rich
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Re: not so new
« Reply #1 on: September 14, 2011, 11:33:41 PM »
Hi Rich and welcome

It doesn't sound wrong - its re-assuring to know we are not alone in this and that there are people out there that understand exactly what 'a bad day' entails.

Nay x
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Re: not so new
« Reply #2 on: September 15, 2011, 07:52:09 AM »
Hi Rich, as nay says its reassuring to know others share our feelings and fears and can often help by a few words when we are at our lowest xx
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Re: not so new
« Reply #3 on: September 15, 2011, 08:27:35 AM »
Hi Rich. If you would like to tell us how the depression is affecting you we will be happy to listen.
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Rich

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« Reply #4 on: September 15, 2011, 04:47:34 PM »
Thanks for your welcomes everyone, it's good to know there are people out there who know!

How it feels...well sometimes I feel like the motivation to start anything has been sucked out of me, sometimes it feels like my family won't shut up and the walls are closing in, sometimes I can't settle at anything, sometimes I forget what I'm doing, sometimes I feel angry, upset, tearful, frustrated, indecisive, unloveable and unloved...and sometimes I feel fine and motivated but I really don't know when I'll feel what!  

The affect of all this is that I've not been able to settle into a role in my previous career (Engineering Project Management) since 2003 and after a spell of being out of work I now work for myself buying and selling antiques. My family life has been affected badly and my physical health has suffered, I've been diagnosed with type 2 Diabetes as well as Tinnitus. Not all good but at least I'm not having to work for someone anymore!

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Re: not so new
« Reply #5 on: September 15, 2011, 08:09:41 PM »
All these symptoms are so classic of depression and don't they feel awful?! It is a disaster that any of us are having to deal with this horrendous illness I;m sorry to hear that you are going through it at the moment. The confusing state of mixed emotions - and feeling powerless to harness any of them is debilitating on a day to day level. and the breakthrough of a good day brings new torture to the bad days. Have you told your family how you feel so that they understand if you seem off?
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