... that a year ago today was my first doctors appointment. All of last week I was aware that the 14th fell over this weekend and up until about 10 minutes ago I hadn't twigged! I wasn't well for quite a while before my 'diagnosis'
but I just wanted to hopefully encourage everyone by saying, I am getting there! A year ago, I had all but given up - everything was way over my head, I could see absolutley no point in anything (including carrying on) I felt that just by being here I was causing worry and distress to those that loved me and I'd just be better off dissapearing. Now, I know of course - thats rubbish :) I still have days or times (as demonstrated recently) where it is still very much apparent - but I am nowhere near as bad as I was. The 'good' days mostly outweigh the bad and I am slowly beating this....
IT'S NOT SOMETHING THAT WILL BE WITH US FOREVER! Yes, it may force us to make changes, it may affect the way we see others and the world around us - but the feeling of being numb, of feeling like you just want to curl up and do
anything to stop your mind from thinking - to escape what is going on inside of your head because you simply cannot bear it any longer - it does go!! Days do slowly become more manageable and you find ways of coping with things. It takes patience, it takes the right medication and very often a good support network - but there is light at the end of the tunnel - and its called LIFE! We'll all get back out there and start living it again soon - but for now, just concentrate on getting better
