How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

Today seems to be a bad day for just about everyone! How awful. We are united together. A family. Where ever you are, at work, in bed, making dinner, sobbing somewhere, watching tv, staring into space, we are together. Some one is always thinking of you. We will get through this. This is a temporary state. A transition.

Everybody reach out. Keep your head up and your heart strong.

Lol x

[Alstare1974]

Hugs lol

[Alstare1974]

Had a letter from my solicitor today regarding the divorce and it's really upset me. Everything is just pushing me closer and closer to the edge. It's getting quite scary.

[Lol]

It is the end of something traumatic Alstare and the beginning of new beginnings. It is right that you should grieve what you had. You are doing this now. You will come out the other side. You are important and you don't need ANYONE who thinks you are not. The divorce finalisation is the funeral of the phase. But it opens up others. You have a future. You can shape it.

[Alstare1974]

Thanks lol. I set you a pm hope you got it.

[Depina]

Lol thanks for that lovely uplifting post.
Keep strong
Di XXXXXX

[cornish]

feeling worse than any words or  "£" can express
i can work at the weekend but really not feeling it, i just wanna curl up and hide again like i used to before i thew my self into work. dunno what to do anymore

[smirfy21]

feeling really emotional today and I just feel tired and tearful something isn't right because its gradually got to this point all week. I really need this GP appointment on monday because I will not let this reverse the progress I have made.

I really wish I wasn't feeling like this and Im hoping that its just a matter of changing my medication levels or medication all together. Im going to try and get some sleep as I can feel my body screeming at me.

night all and I hope your all ok
smirfy

[Zaf]

It is the end of something traumatic Alstare and the beginning of new beginnings. It is right that you should grieve what you had. You are doing this now. You will come out the other side. You are important and you don't need ANYONE who thinks you are not. The divorce finalisation is the funeral of the phase. But it opens up others. You have a future. You can shape it.

That is so very true lol and put over beautifully

[Zaf]

Well, I slept, it might have been at the wrong time but perhaps I have to put up with that for a while, I dont know. 

I have a feeling of slight agitation and wanting to escape from everything and everyone this morning for some reason, plan to do my meditation early, do the essential horsey and housework chores then either sleep, find some pictures for the gallery, tackle putting some music on my newly aquired MP3 player if I can work out how, do some needlework or get my art stuff out, not sure yet, I'll go with the flow

Thinking of everyone xx

[caring angel]

Hello Depina, i'm thinking of you today, I hope you are ok. Take care x
I'm also thinking of everyone else today, you will all get through this. x
Zaf your doing the right thing keeping yourself busy.

[Zaf]

feeling really emotional today and I just feel tired and tearful something isn't right because its gradually got to this point all week. I really need this GP appointment on monday because I will not let this reverse the progress I have made.

I really wish I wasn't feeling like this and Im hoping that its just a matter of changing my medication levels or medication all together. Im going to try and get some sleep as I can feel my body screeming at me.

night all and I hope your all ok
smirfy

hang on in there smirfy till you can get to see the doctor  &*(

[Lol]

Good Morning campers.

Cornish I'm sorry you have suddenly started to feel different about work. This is very disconcerting for you. What is it about your feelings toward work that has changed? I wonder if your body craves the rest but your mind needs the occupation and you are feeling the power struggle between these two things? How are you feeling today?

Zaf. This is an odd phase isn't it? Poor you. If you are feeling like running away, could you excuse yourself to your husband, make yourself a nice flask of winter soup and go for a walk for a couple of hours just youself. Get into nature and just have some selfish time to get yourself more centered. Perhaps do some meditation somewhere beautiful outside?

[Zaf]

Its taken me a bit by surprise lol, although Ive had feelings like that in past episodes it seems to be in the 'wrong order' if that makes sense?

My sleep patterns are a bit weird so I did my mediation at 3am! But at least I am getting around 6 hours of sleep at night since I started taking a herbal remedy, I thenwent out early and watched the sunrise, it was lovely this morning :)  David is out working this morning so I'm playing some nice music and pottering around since I came back indoors.

Ive got an urge to turn out all my cupboards and chuck anything away thats out of date or take anything I havent worn for ages to the charity shop, at the moment I'm trying not to rush into anything as I know I mustn't overdo things and send myself down with a huge bump.

If I dont feel too tired I'll drive down to our local National Trust woods later and amble along to my meditation spot in there and absorb all the lovely feelings I get when I'm amongst the trees :)

How are you feeling today?

[Lol]

That sounds like a great idea. Nature is so healing. I love this time of year when there is that lovely rich smell of damp tree roots and leaves. So oxygenating and every breath feels like medicine.

I'm just generally upset with the situation. I spoke to my best friend last night, and although she is my best friend I hadn't told her anything about this situation because, I don't know really, I think I was thinking it wouldn't come to this and there was no need to worry anyone until there was something to worry about. But obviously now there is. She is shocked to her very core. It is also this shock that comes across everyone when I tell them that makes me put off telling people. Because their shock is a reflection of the shock and horrendousness of the situation and I remind myself enough of this every second of the day, to then watch it come accross everyone else as well is just too much. They have all done it. No one can believe it. They simply can not believe it. My best friend was lovely. Shocked, but supportive and it feels a relief that she knows now, like ripping off a plaster. She is going to come away with me for a short break just to have a blow out and I think that would be really good for me. Some escape, some support and something to look forward to. I'm lucky to have her.

In short I am just so grief stricken and so exhausted by it and there is no escape because if I sleep because I'm exhausted I dream about her and torture myself! I need knocking out. I have some sleep aids I wonder if that might be a good idea.