How are you feeling today?

[danbob]

monday eh!!

feelin great for once today.... found this forum on the net and when my registration was approved iv had a quick nosey around and i cant believe how supportive and down to earth everyone is. i feel that this place is going to help me allot :) didnt sleep too well tho... i never seem to do, my SNRI withdrawal is getting easier and easier to cope with everyday, things are looking up!!...... until my next depressive phase that is  the joys of BPD eh :)

[Lol]

That's fantastic danbob what a positive post I'm really pleased things are looking up. Thanks for sharing your experience of coming off SNRI's that will really help some people in here and was a really important thing to say. People are very supportive in here and I'm sure you will get a lot out of joining.  :)

[Munchroom]

Not too good today   

Ive had a bit of a sore throat/tickly cough for about a week and its really starting to get me down... also I've gradually stopped my Venlafaxine over the last few weeks (on my doctors advice) and I am now a couple of days into taking none and just an increased dose of Trazadone at night... I keep getting like a fizzy feeling, could be anywhere - although it my brain is the scariest because it sort of goes cold momentarily  But when I mentioned it to my doctor he said its all down to the withdrawal....

Also 'Peter' had some recent pics of himself put up on Facebook (good old Facebook eh?!  ) and its wierd looking at them and effectivley 'seeing' him for the first time since everything kicked off... I know It shouldn't really effect me, but *shrugs* I don't know, its weird...

I have managed to finish a drawing for a friends birthday card today, which I'm quite proud of.... but I'm trying to summon up the motivation to have a quick tidy around and start preparing the roast dinner that I promised Chris yesterday! - Not having much luck so far....

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Sorry to hear you're not too good today Munchroom, viruses just seem to amplify everything don't they. The fizzy feeling sounds odd, that's a strange side effect isn't it. I had a similar experience when I came off fluoxitine, not fizzy, but kept going cold like when some one says some one's just walked over their grave.

Well done for finishing your friends birthday card. What a lovely thoughtful thing to do for some one. I bet they'll cherish it.

I've come home from work early to start a big deep clean on the house but I am so exhausted I can not do it. I'm trying to break it down into small bits but I can't resist the temptation to get into bed!! I can't face relate tonight this exhausted and I'm convincing myself rather sucessfully that it would be the right thing to do!!! Feels like a foregone conclusion now!

[danbob]

Not too good today   

Ive had a bit of a sore throat/tickly cough for about a week and its really starting to get me down... also I've gradually stopped my Venlafaxine over the last few weeks (on my doctors advice) and I am now a couple of days into taking none and just an increased dose of Trazadone at night... I keep getting like a fizzy feeling, could be anywhere - although it my brain is the scariest because it sort of goes cold momentarily  But when I mentioned it to my doctor he said its all down to the withdrawal....

i know exactly what your going through there, i came off venlafaxine just under 3 weeks ago.... the first week is awful but just stick to it, every day it gets better and better, the "fizzing" feeling goes eventually and its replaced by a feeling of being sick for a few days, but after that its a walk in the park :)

[Munchroom]

i know exactly what your going through there, i came off venlafaxine just under 3 weeks ago.... the first week is awful but just stick to it, every day it gets better and better, the "fizzing" feeling goes eventually and its replaced by a feeling of being sick for a few days, but after that its a walk in the park :)

Thankyou - you know what I mean by the fizzy feeling then? I don't just sound like some wierdo??  (thats the look I get when I have tried to explain it to some people...) Can't say i'm looking forward to the feeling sick bit... but I guess once its out of my system, things might (hopefully!!) start to look up - and it will clear the way for a whole new bunch of side-effects from another AD.....

[Alstare1974]

Feeling really guilty and a bit upset. Someone I know online just asked me to tell them my method for suicide. I said no and now feel bad because I wasn't prepared to help. I don't want to be responsible for someone else doing it.  Especially as I know that this method is fairly lethal if followed to the letter. I feel in a really tricky position because I know what it's like to want to end your life and be so desperate as to see no other way out. I'm sat here feeling terrible about the whole thing. It's really put me on edge.

[danbob]

i know exactly what your going through there, i came off venlafaxine just under 3 weeks ago.... the first week is awful but just stick to it, every day it gets better and better, the "fizzing" feeling goes eventually and its replaced by a feeling of being sick for a few days, but after that its a walk in the park :)

Thankyou - you know what I mean by the fizzy feeling then? I don't just sound like some wierdo??  (thats the look I get when I have tried to explain it to some people...) Can't say i'm looking forward to the feeling sick bit... but I guess once its out of my system, things might (hopefully!!) start to look up - and it will clear the way for a whole new bunch of side-effects from another AD.....

iv opted to get psychological treatment instead or AD's iv been on them all and where some worked brilliantly the side effects i was getting were not worth it.... roll on CBT and psychiatrists

[Munchroom]

Alstare, you did a very resposible thing in saying no. You have to question how you would feel if you had told this person your method and how you would handle the knowledge that it was what killed them.

You are bound to feel upset - if was a very unfair thing to ask of you, but I can assure you, you did the right thing.

[danbob]

Feeling really guilty and a bit upset. Someone I know online just asked me to tell them my method for suicide. I said no and now feel bad because I wasn't prepared to help. I don't want to be responsible for someone else doing it.  Especially as I know that this method is fairly lethal if followed to the letter. I feel in a really tricky position because I know what it's like to want to end your life and be so desperate as to see no other way out. I'm sat here feeling terrible about the whole thing. It's really put me on edge.

this is the time your friend needs you the most, if it wasnt for my friends id be dead along time ago, i agree with you not telling your preferred method :)

[Pete]

worse i've been for along time. really want a drink but keeptelling myself its no good and wont help but i can taste it so clear. snappig at everyone for nothing too. hate me like this.

[Zaf]

You did the right thing Pete,  sorry to hear you feel really bad atm


I'm exhausted just now, had a bath and going to bed before long, dont feel particularly down, just completely drained

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Alstare you did the right thing. It was not fair of them to put you in that position and you know how you would have felt having that on your conscience. Well done. You protected your friend. If some one is going to do it they don't need other peoples methods and tips so it might well have been a cry for help and you did the right thing. If that person was seeing if they were worth saving you have just told them yes. Just as you are.

Pete I'm sorry you are feeling bad today. Please don't drink if you may not be in control. There is evidence that you will come out of feeling like this as you felt quite good for spells last week. Please re read your posts of last week and remember how that felt. It will come again. This is a temporary state and will not last. You will feel better again. You can ride it out. Please unravel your feelings on here if you like. It is a great disappointment to you to feel like this after a better spell. Try to unload your thoughts and feelings on here and see if you can develop a way of coping through this so that next time you have more control over what you are going to do. Try apologising to the people you have snapped at and letting them know you don't feel yourself and don't mean to take it out on them People can understand if you let them in.

Zaf get plenty of rest. Hopefully tomorrow you will feel a little more energised. I really hope so

Off to relate now and absolutely bricking it. I don't know what angle to come at it from. I'm going to try not to mention her depression. I am absolutely sure she is in depression denial and it is completely hindering any progress both in her recovery and our relationship. She seems really down today. she is hormonal but I hope she doesn't sabotage the session feelng low and can find a way to let me in just a little. I so want to scoop her up and make her all better. I would hold her forever. Here goes...

[Zaf]

Thanks lol, I'm not long for my bed, I know I need to rest but sometimes the tiredness is just so very frustrating.

Hope it goes better this week for you both,  I'll be thinking of you

[Munchroom]

Hope it goes well Lol, will be thinking of you xx