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Bubblemama

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5880 on: August 10, 2012, 05:39:33 AM »
Low, exhausted and really struggling. Have been awake for 22 hours with absolutely no sleep.

Today is the anniversary of the day we found out our baby had died.

Every year we mark the day and her due date by releasing a balloon, lighting a candle and generally reflecting on how she would've been and what she could be doing now.

This year it seems different. On a daily basis I think of her, not a day ever goes by without me thinking of her. But at the moment the tears fall without me even realising, sleep seems to bypass me and I just feel there is this massive void in our lives. I am blessed to have two amazing boys who make my life worth living but just feel that there is a hole for all of us.

Today will take all my courage and energy to get through. If I make it it's going to be a miracle  :(

Sorry for going on x
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5881 on: August 10, 2012, 07:21:47 AM »
(((((big hugs for you))))). S x x x x
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Bubblemama

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5882 on: August 10, 2012, 08:37:22 AM »
Thank you Shaz. Much appreciated xxxx
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5883 on: August 10, 2012, 09:53:50 AM »
 %^% Bubblemama x x x
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5884 on: August 10, 2012, 11:06:35 AM »
Thank you Mamalou. That means a lot xxxx
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mamalou

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5885 on: August 10, 2012, 09:30:38 PM »
Edgy, shaky and positively fed up with this sorry existence. There seems to be one way out of this life so I'm off to make plans.

Sorry to everyone here who really deserves the support. I am in no way trying to shift the focus, this is just the one place I can say it how it really is.

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5886 on: August 10, 2012, 10:32:47 PM »
I feel more positive but have worked a 13 hour shift.  Keeping active keeps my mind from wandering.  Looking forward to doing a hobby of mine on Sunday.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5887 on: August 11, 2012, 01:01:59 PM »
Im not feeling good 2day!
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5888 on: August 12, 2012, 04:41:00 PM »
Have barely slept for days. Scary thoughts going over and over in my mind.
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5889 on: August 13, 2012, 04:43:03 PM »
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Re: How are you feeling today?
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5891 on: August 13, 2012, 06:41:40 PM »
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5892 on: August 13, 2012, 06:52:07 PM »
Feeling a bit helpless and bored of this 2day. I am functioning now,but that's it,Im not finding any enjoyment in anything.
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Amanda

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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5893 on: August 14, 2012, 08:43:19 AM »
bad thoughts going round and round in my head, cant stop them, im bad, evil, horrible, useless, worthless, stupid,want it to stop, want it to end, scared of dark thoughts,hate myself, hate my life, want it ot end, want to die, dont want to feel like this anymore, dont want to feel anything jsut disapppear and be forgotten about forever please i just want it to stop now, scared really scared dotn know how to make it stop cant make it stop
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Re: How are you feeling today?
« Reply #5894 on: August 14, 2012, 10:01:31 AM »
Amanda, I'm there too.  *()  x
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