How are you feeling today?

[Buttercup]

Rant away, no one minds. I get terrible anxiety, it's just awful and if anything goes wrong, no matter how small, it really spins me out.

Really feel for you, the idea of having to talk to people would be my worst nightmare.

[pinkcasi]

I just came home and sat on the sofa trying to not cry, my boyfriend is all what's the matter you were fine yesterday, i cant explain how there are bad days and ok days, i've decided to up my meds from today instead of waiting out the week i just cant take it anymore, when im ok im ...alright i guess but when im sad im self harming, an dlying to my boyfriend about it i cant do it, when i spoke to the dr she sakes if i was suicidal and i said no because i was having an ok day, but on a bad day....

[Buttercup]

I have those feelings to and then feel guilty for having them. It's hard for those who don't suffer to understand how depression makes us feel. I was lucky in a way that my husband had suffered in the past and knew what it felt like, but when I was diagnosed bipolar he didn't know what to expect.

Xxx

[Sweetpea]

Depression is a horrible illness and its so hard to explain to others how we can be ok one day and so down the next.  I was also lucky my husand has not had depression but was sympathic with me.

 &*(

S x x

[pinkcasi]

My boyfriend does try to understand and he is so lovely but i think it's difficult for anyone who's not been through it to really understand, loved ones see you being 'ok' one day and think 'Oh well she's fixed now' and done understand that it's an ongoing battle, i hae to hide the self harm from him because i cant handle the disapointment in his eyes, and the worry, he's under a lot of pressure at work and i dont want to make it worse, every time it happens i feel ashamed, and disapointed in myself, I cant handle that from him too.

[Zaf]

Very very tired despite sleeping reasonably well, not sure if its the virus or depression

[Sweetpea]

 &*( &*( &*( for you Zaf. 

Thinking of you.

S x x x x

[Zaf]

Thanks shaz

Z xxx

[KateG]

Feeling very alone today

[Zaf]

&*( &*(&*(

[pinkcasi]

Numb 

[Zaf]

Relieved but a bit guilty

[Sweetpea]

Tired from the gym.  But good tired.

 &*( &*( &*( for all who needs them.

S x x x x

[Zaf]

Thats great to hear shhaz :)

Z xxx

[Zaf]

tired and down