a silly thought

[kentgirl]

This may seem weird but I've been fine for the last few months now I'm thinking about doing something silly.  I know I probably won't but I keep thinking about taking an overdose, I know I don't really want to.....

[lightenup]

These are not silly thoughts and you recognise that they are not good thoughts, sorry to say but your mind is not in the best place at the moment, but thankfully it sounds like your good days are outnumbering your bad days.  If the thoughts continue please seek someone to talk too.  x 

[junior]

Hi Kentgirl
The thoughts can be very hard, scary and confusing but you know they are bad thought which is a good thing, when you get a bad thought try to do something you enjoy to take your mind off it.
take care
junior

[swampygirl]

Hi Kentgirl
Please speak to your doctor about this asap.
You say you have thought of overdosing but probably won't? But 'probably' doesn't mean you won't. There may be a time when you feel really low and actually go ahead. I so hope that you don't get to that point.
So please get help.
I wish you well.
Luvs x

[kentgirl]

Thank you for your replies, support and good advice I really appreciate it. xXx

[Grant]

Hi Kentgirl...

When I was at the bottom of my depression, although I never even considered taking my own life, I DID often feel like, whilst driving, if I were to be hit by a truck and killed, it could be a good thing.  That feeling of utter worthlessness (in your own life and of life around you) can really tear you down.  And worst of all, nothing seems fun in a time like that, no matter how much you really should be enjoying it!

Apart from anti-depressants which you probably need at a time like this (and never presume that you can handle it without medical help), perspectives are SO SO important.  The world can be a really rough place at times, but there are diamonds out there.  Accept that there are nasty things out there, but keep your eyes open for the good ones - and focus on THOSE.  I know its much easier said than done, but its a habbit that you can teach yourself.  It wont make you feel better overnight, but when you can make the bad stuff into "stupid stuff I cant do anything about anyway", and the good stuff into "this is the life" - it takes so much more for life to knock you down.

Good luck!
:)

[Zita]

Hi Kentgirl...please please seek help asap. 6 years ago I was having silly thoughts and one they the thought became reality when I went to jump in front of a train. I didnt succeed luckly but it scared the hell out of me and it sort of was the wake up call...I needed professional help. Was really hard to admit but looking back now was what saved my life and I am on the road to recovery...very slowly but getting there. x

[Zaf]

I agree, you really must get help as soon as possible, it can be a very short step from thinking about it to attempting it.