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'I was nothing more than a sex toy with a heartbeat': Sex abuse victim Sarah Ransome reveals she attempted suicide TWICE after being locked up in 'Epstein- Maxwell's dungeon of hell'

*  Sarah Ransome, 37, said she tried to kill herself twice while suffering abuse from Jeffery Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell, once in 2008 and another in 2018 as their trials caused the trauma to resurface
*  Ransome, who was only 22 when she was forced into Epstein's sex trafficking ring, said she also tried jumping off a cliff into shark infested waters in the U.S. Virgin Islands to try and escape the abuse
*  She said Maxwell caught her before she could do so and pushed her into a room to be raped by Epstein

By Ronny Reyes For Dailymail.Com

Published: 17:17, 28 June 2022 | Updated: 18:25, 28 June 2022

One of Jeffery Epstein's victims outlined the abuse she suffered in her victim impact statement, revealing she tried to kill herself twice after being locked up in Ghislaine Maxwell's dungeon as the British socialite faces sentencing.   Sarah Ransome, 37, said in her victim impact statement, released on Tuesday, she once tried jumping off a cliff while at Epstein's St. Little James private island in the U.S. Virgin Islands.  '[I was] nothing more than a sex toy with a heartbeat and soul used to entertain Epstein, Maxwell and others,' she wrote.

'On one visit to the island, the sexual demands, degradation and humiliation ensued me to try to escape by jumping off a cliff into shark-infested waters.  I was caught by Maxwell and company moments before jumping. At the time, that extremely risky escape seemed more appealing than being raped one more time'. 

Maxwell faces up to 55 years in jail when she is sentenced for recruiting and trafficking underage girls for Jeffrey Epstein.  Ransome said she was only 22 years old when she arrived in New York with hopes of attending the Fashion Institute of Technology.   She said she was targeted by an Epstein-Maxwell recruiter named Natalya Malyshev in a club, who arranged for her to meet the billionaire who allegedly promised to help provide financial support for her to attend her dream school.   'Epstein and Maxwell were masters at finding young, vulnerable girls and young women to exploit' Ransome said. 

'However, soon after lulling me and others into a false sense of comfort and security, they pounced, ensnaring us in their upside-down, twisted world of rape, rape and more rape.  'Like Hotel California, you could check into the Epstein-Maxwell dungeon of sexual hell, but you could never leave. Ghislaine by her own hand, forced me into Epstein's room to be raped.'

Although Ransome was able to escape for the UK in 2007, she said she began drinking heavily as she was constantly haunted by what happened to her, fearing that 'someday Epstein and Maxwell would harm me, my loved ones and my family, as Epstein repeatedly told me would happen, if I ever dared to leave.'

The trauma suffocated Ransome to the point where she attempted to kill herself a year later as Epstein was facing trial, and then making another attempt at her own life in 2018, during her case against Maxwell and other Epstein associates.  'Despite my earnest effort, I have not realized my God-given potential professionally or entered healthy personal relationships,' Ransome said. 'I have never married and do not have children, something I always wished for, even as a little girl.  I shy away from strangers and have difficulty making new friends because I fear they could be associated with Epstein, Maxwell and the enablers.  To this day, I attend AA meetings, but I have had numerous relapses and know that only by the grace of God do I continue to live,' she added. 'Maxwell is today the same woman I met almost 20 years ago incapable of compassion or common human decency.' 

Victims Annie Farmer and the woman known only as 'Kate' are also due to read their testimony in person and face down Maxwell. Farmer was seen arriving to the Manhattan courthouse Tuesday morning flanked by her lawyer, along with Ransome and victim Elizabeth Stein.  Ransome also spoke outside of the courthouse, and said, 'Ghislaine must die in prison. I've been in hell and back for the past 17 years.'

Prosecutors have asked Judge Alison Nathan to impose a sentence of at least 30 years because of Maxwell's 'utter lack of remorse.' Maxwell claims she should serve just four years as she is not a danger to the public.  The sentencing will mark the end of a decades-long fight for justice by victims of Maxwell and Epstein.   Judge Nathan overruled several objections Maxwell's lawyers made over the pre-sentence report in court on Tuesday.  The lawyers objected to multiple claims in the report that involve details of payments, sex acts and recruitment tactics.  Judge Nathan said the testimony given during the trial validates the claims in the report.  After Epstein hanged himself while awaiting trial in 2019, their attention turned to Maxwell who was arrested a year later and found guilty in December following her sensational trial.  She has said she will appeal her conviction and claims that she is being made a 'scapegoat' for Epstein.  It is unclear if Maxwell will speak herself but during the trial and earlier hearings she has only uttered a few words when given the chance Jurors deliberated for five full days before finding Maxwell guilty of five of six counts.  In court Maxwell often hugged her lawyers appeared in good health despite claims from her lawyers she had been losing weight and losing hair due to the grim conditions in prison pre-trial.  She declined to testify, telling the court: 'You honor, the government has not proved its case beyond a reasonable doubt so there is no reason to testify'.

Four women gave evidence against Maxwell during her trial: a victim known as 'Jane', Annie Farmer, Kate and another woman called Carolyn.  Over three weeks, the jury heard how Maxwell 'served up' underage girls for Epstein and relished her role as the 'Lady of the House' at his mansion in Palm Beach, Florida.  Between 1994 and 2004 Maxwell was Epstein's 'right hand' and paid $200 for sexualized massages or even took part in the abuse.  The victims, some as young as 14, were given a similar amount of money if they brought friends to Epstein, the jury was told.  During the trial, prosecutors called 24 witnesses to give jurors a picture of life inside Epstein's homes - a subject of public fascination and speculation ever since his 2006 arrest in Florida in a child sex case.  A housekeeper testified he was expected to be 'blind, deaf and dumb' about the private lives of Epstein, a financier who cultivated friendships with influential politicians and business tycoons.  Pilots took the witness stand and dropped the names of luminaries Britain's Prince Andrew, Bill Clinton, Donald Trump who flew on Epstein's private jets.  Jurors saw physical evidence like a folding massage table once used by Epstein and a 'black book' that listed contact information for some of the victims under the heading 'massages'.  There were bank records showing he had transferred $30.7 million to Maxwell.

SARAH RANSOME'S FULL VICTIM IMPACT STATEMENT

It has been a long journey to bring Maxwell to justice.  Sadly, the accurate count of victims will never be known.  My book, Silenced No More, chronicles it as a 'journey to hell and back'.  Although I have escaped the hellish trap set by Epstein, Maxwell and others, I continue, now 17 years later, to suffer from the horrific trauma it caused. I came to New York at age 22, wanting to start my life over after an incredibly abusive relationship.  I hoped to attend FIT (Fashion Institute of Technology) and work in the fashion industry.  Soon after arriving, I met an Epstein/Maxwell recruiter named Natalya Malyshev in a club.  She befriended me and, soon after that, arranged for me to meet Jeffery.  She described him as a kind philanthropist who could help me get into FIT and provide much-needed support, something which was alien to me.  Over the next seven to eight months, I became, against my will, nothing more than a human sex toy with a heartbeat and soul for the entertainment of Epstein, Maxwell and others.  Sometimes I was subjected to sexual predation multiple times per day, both in his New York mansion and on his private island, St Little James in the US Virgin Islands.  On one visit to the island, the sexual demands, degradation and humiliation became so horrific that I tried to escape by attempting to jump off a cliff into shark-infested waters, but was caught by Maxwell and company moments before jumping.  At the time, the extremely risky escape seemed more appealing than being raped one more time.  As the evidence at the trial of Ms. Maxwell proved, and my own experience confirms, Maxwell was Epstein's right-hand woman.  She was the manager of several recruiters and many others who provided the means and cover for Epstein's predation.  In several instances, Ghislaine by her own hand forced me into Epstein's room to be raped.  Epstein and Maxwell were masters at finding young, vulnerable girls and young women to exploit.  Upon targeting a vulnerable girl/young woman, they would ingratiate themselves to her, giving her compliments and small gifts, telling her how special she was.  They would tell her that Epstein was a very wealthy, generous man whose primary purpose was to help the less fortunate.  He and Maxwell were sophisticated, worldly adults with deep ties to important people, world leaders and institutions who could give her the lifeline she needed to make her dreams reality.  However, soon after lulling me and others into a false sense of comfort and security, they pounced, ensnaring us in their upside-down, twisted world of rape, rape and more rape.  Like Hotel California, you could check into the Epstein-Maxwell dungeon of sexual hell, but you could never leave.  Ghislaine by her own hand forced me into Epstein's room to be raped.  The manipulation, intimidation, and emotional abuse used to control the victims took many forms.  In my case, Epstein and Maxwell used my damaged upbringing, naivety, lack of a long-term visa, lack of education and my desire to go to FIT to manipulate and ensnare me.  Once ensnared, to pacify and keep me they told me that I was exceptionally intelligent and that I had real potential to be someone and something in life, that my dreams of making my family one day proud of me were achievable and that Epstein and Maxwell's strong ties to FIT could make this happen.  With their help, my admission was almost assured.  'But'. There was always a 'but'.  First, I had to write my application, which I did, but Maxwell had to review it and conveniently always found fault.  Then another 'but' I needed to lose 30 pounds because I was a 'piglet' (Maxwell's numerous degrading descriptions of me).  Epstein and Maxwell put me on a strict Atkin's diet while simultaneously sending me to a psychiatrist who prescribed anti-depressants among other drugs I did not need that caused weight gain.  It was a classic no-win situation and they knew it precisely what human traffickers seek.  I never lost the weight, my application was never good enough, and it never got submitted.  I thank almighty God that, in 2007, I managed to escape the horror by fleeing for my life to the UK.  Since then, I have been coping with the daily all-consuming fear that someday Epstein and Maxwell would harm me, my loved ones and my family, as Epstein repeatedly told me would happen if I ever dared to leave.  I frequently experience flashbacks and wake up in a cold sweat from nightmares reliving the awful experience.  I am hyper vigilant, experience dramatic mood changes and avoid certain places, situations and people. I will sometimes start crying uncontrollably and without apparent reason.  I have worked hard with several mental health professionals who have diagnosed me with extreme symptoms of anxiety, depression, low self-esteem, PTSD, and tendencies to self-harm.  Despite my earnest effort, I have not realized my God-given potential professionally or entered healthy personal relationships.  I have never married and do not have children, something I always wished for, even as a little girl.  I shy away from strangers and have difficulty making new friends because I fear they could be associated with Epstein, Maxwell and the enablers.  To this day, I attend AA (Alcoholics Anonymous) meetings but I have had numerous relapses and know that only by the grace of God do I continue to live.  I have attempted suicide twice since the abuse both near-fatal.  Last year, I travelled internationally to New York to attend Maxwell's trial.  That was both therapeutic and traumatizing.  It was therapeutic to hear the testimony of the four brave victim-witnesses, whose experiences paralleled my own, to know that I was not alone and that our story was finally being told for the world to hear.  But it was also traumatizing to relive the experience and flashbacks and the nightmares have increased.  I am grateful that the jury believed the victims and returned a guilty verdict.  But a question still tears at my soul: after all of this, how can the manager of this enormous sex trafficking conspiracy involving so many co-conspirators that snared 100s if not 1,000s of vulnerable girls and young women over three decades continue to maintain her innocence?

Who and what institution enabled this sex trafficking ring to continue?

Why haven't the institutions and important people that enabled them been exposed and brought to justice?

Reflecting on it, I know the answers to my questions.  Maxwell is today the same woman I met almost 20 years ago - incapable of compassion or common human decency.  Because of her wealth, social status and connections, she believes herself beyond reproach and above the law.  Sentencing her to the rest of her life in prison will not change her, but it will give other survivors and I a slight sense of justice and help us as we continue to work to recover from the sex-trafficking hell she perpetrated.  She will never, ever hurt another young woman or child in this lifetime.  For that, I am sure.  As for the important, high-profile enablers governmental institutions, politicians, and very wealthy friends of Epstein/Maxwell here and abroad so far their stature and power have protected them.  I hope that one day they will be exposed and we will be able to say that the United States truly is governed by the rule of law and not by powerful people.  To Ghislaine I say: 'You broke me in unfathomable ways but what you didn't break is my spirit, nor did you dampen my internal flame that now burns brighter than ever before.'

- Sarah Ransome, 2022