Sorry I haven't been about on the forum, just been a funny few days. Yesterday was my sister's birthday and I had ordered something for but Amazon gave me a delivery date for the 9th December. My sister rang me last night to thank for the card and such a thoughtful present which is on their Christmas tree right at the top which was a relief for me as I thought she might have been put out. It's a handmade silver bauble with a ribbon with words on - forgotten exacty what but it has a reference to white feathers - feathers attached to the bauble as well and written on it Chloe 21-9 22-9-2019. It made her day as she can put it on the tree every year, a close friend gave her something similar which is also on the tree but the one we got her is her favourite.
The reason for having a memory loss is that it is the 20th anniversary of my mum in law dying which is still a bit of a toughy for me. She died of cervical cancer and two years before refused to have a smear test done as she was scared of getting the big C. I had pre-cancerous when I was about 23 years old and laser treatment which was successful so told my mum in law about it but at the same time I couldn't force her to have the test done. I was guilt ridden for years because she may have had more years if it had been treated early enough.
The fact that we got my mum in law to hospital when we did gave the family an extra four months as she probably wouldn't have survived the week out if we hadn't. I still miss her laugh and humour.