I'm becoming increasingly depressed lately. I'm stuck in a job I can't stand. I'm being constantly chewed out over petty things (it's a sales job) like not selling insurance to enough customers on our products or not selling enough accessories with each sale. I get my job threatened constantly over things that literally don't matter like leaving a cupboard open with some items in that customers don't even have access to. The company sucks and treats the staff like crap most of the time, like I'm supposed to feel super lucky to work there. I don't. I don't under perform because I'm not capable of it, I under perform because I simply don't care. I care about getting the customer what they want, and nothing more. I just feel like I'm going crazy in this place.
I know I'm lucky to even have a job right now, but how can I stay sane in a job where I'm constantly harassed over things that simply don't matter in real terms. I spent years in school and worked to save up for university, I graduated with my loan paid off in a scientific field (computer science), yet I'm no better off than if I hadn't bothered. I put in all that work to be yelled at by someone who doesn't know the colours of the rainbow because I forgot to wash a cup. That's not life, that's a sorry state of affairs, for ANYONE. Nobody should be in that position. I just feel like I worked so hard for no pay off, I've watched everyone I went to school with get married and get good jobs, yet here I am, I've watched them all go off and start their lives. What happened to mine? I'm 25, still single, still living with my parents, in a job I hate. My life never even got started. I've watched both my siblings set out and surpass me, my parents pity me and treat me like some sorry sack.
That's not what my life was meant to be, but that's what it is.
And people ask me why I'm not motivated at work.