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Hello - new member
« on: August 02, 2009, 08:23:27 PM »
ColourMeBlue Hello - Posted: Wed Jun 24, 2009 11:27 am 
 
Hi
I came across this site as I was surfing the internet for depression forums - I was feeling pretty desperate at the time but I came across this site and decided to join. It looks like its been set up recently so I guess it wil take time to get going and I wish you luck with that. I love the colour and layout ...

A bit about me .

I'm heading towards the menopause and my hormones are really screwy. I've tried to cope with all the changes alone without the intervention of doctors or drugs. I have a very supportive husband and great kids --- but I still feel so isolated and certainly feel like I'm a burden to them. More and more (just lately) I've been laying on the sofa or my bed and just tap away at the keys on my laptop-- I feel so pathetic,I really do, and I know this isn't the life for me. I was always extremely active and took care of myself with exercise and good nutrition. All that has changed. I've gained a lot of weight during the last two years ( 40lbs) and that makes me feel very low to begin with. I dont know who I am anymore or how I can possibly make myself well again. I obsess every day about my health - I just dont feel good anymore. Menopause has slowly robbed me of a career, it's prevented me from spending fun time with my daughter, like shopping sprees, cinema..all the fun things that a young teen likes to do --- I am missing out on so much, precious moments that I can never re-gain.....a husband that deserves so much more than I can give....

Two years ago I was a slim attractive woman, very active, and confident...Now I'm a shadow of myself -- I am lost. I dont know this person that I've become. I dont enjoy life anymore and I'm desperate to return to the days when I did.

Yesterday was the turning point for me --- I woke up feeling really terrible. it was like my brain had fell out... ( sorry to be so graphic) but I had this big black cloud over me that I couldn't shake off. It really scared me and I'm still scared.

In three weeks I have an appointment with a therapist.... he has helped a friend of mine who is also going through menopause. I hope he can help me too. I cannot take any form of AD because they dont suit me at all. I wish I could.

Believe it or not I have a happy go lucky nature, always laughing....not just lately though and that makes me very sad for the people around me...

Thank you so much for 'listening' and giving me a place to express my feelings.

I hope you are all coping as best as you can.

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Re: Hello - new member
« Reply #1 on: August 02, 2009, 08:24:28 PM »
Ezel  - Posted: Wed Jun 24, 2009 2:06 pm 
 
Hi, the board was set up a while ago but recently revamped for various reasons so it's taken a little while to take off again but members are gradually joining and posting. Hubby picked the layout  and I'm more than happy as blue is my fave colour.

I am so sorry you're going through this. Sometimes I think I am a freak of nature as I'm menopausal but sailing through it without any problems so what you're going through is normal. Hope the therapist is able to help you though.

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Re: Hello - new member
« Reply #2 on: August 02, 2009, 08:25:38 PM »
The_Rani - Posted: Wed Jun 24, 2009 2:16 pm 

Hi and welcome   :D