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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #90 on: September 15, 2013, 08:52:41 PM »
Feeling like crap, full of cold, sick of being used, tired, bored, going nowhere in life, always running round helping or doing for others, when i need help...guess what...nobody is there, my life is destroying me.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #91 on: September 15, 2013, 11:02:54 PM »
Crap weekend
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #92 on: September 16, 2013, 08:38:59 PM »
Hey niz don't think I have ever spoke to you before.  I hope this week has started better than last week ended.  I can empathise with you there I think when you are depressed you feel so alone and suffocated.  I found with me I so badly wanted someone to say "hey you aren't ok tell me what's wrong" and to give me a hug but I found people were oblivious and couldn't see it and I wasn't at a point where I could go to anyone myself.  I found I was a shoulder for my friends when they needed me and often put others before myself, which meant I just was left feeling lost and hopeless.  That is when I found this forum and felt comforted I was in a place where people could understand.  I don't know your circumstances but I had my life mapped out, applied to university and then failed to get in so I was left thinking what do I do next and if am honest I still am stuck in a rut and don't know what my purpose is yet.  I took on a pharmacy technician course at work and now I don't enjoy my job, I'm obviously stuck until I finish that course, I feel like my life is wasting away and it's passing me by when everyone's is working out.  Keep your chin up Niz, am here if you ever wanna chat :)  :hug:
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #93 on: September 16, 2013, 08:54:48 PM »
Sorry I haven't responded as I have been feeling very low.  I've been put on Losartan (think that's the right spelling) which has helped.  It's the pain that is causing a problem for me lately and most of my medication is for that.  Yesterday I was absolutely crippled up and couldn't get comfortable at all.  I suffer with arthritis pain which is in both hands, right wrist, back, right hip and right ankle.

What I do around the church I do actually enjoy but I'm my worst enemy there as I don't know when to say no.  I've been told to slow up regularly so I know the others care and they will insist I go home or get on with jobs before I do.

Today I do feel better.  We got so fed up with all the neighbour problems that I got us on the Homeswapper site.  Anyway last week I got an email from our HA stating that they're not going to be part of the scheme.  This means that the HA tenants can be on it but will have to pay the fee to be on it.  Instead the HA is just going to concentrate on Homeswap which is equivilant to Homeswapper and fas been incorporated into Durham Key Options.  That's how we got the bungalow we're in now.  Anybody can apply to Durham Key Options regardless of whether they are council and HA tenants or not.  People will get points in reference to age, medical problems, married / single / in a partnership etc the same as council and HA waiting lists.  The bonus is that people can put bids on properties they are interested in and whoever is at the top of the list gets first refusal.  Now people can do a mutual exchange through the scheme as well.

I applied for us to get onto Durham Key Options about 12 days ago and last week we got a letter through letting us know we had been accepted.  I put in four bids all on bungalows with the closing date of the 10th September for bids.  One is a mutual exchange so it was up to the other tenant to get in touch with us.  One is void which means it's not ready yet so if we wanted that one we would have to wait until the work is done.  That left two and yesterday we got an email and telephone call but were out.  Rick rang the HA when we got home and HA officer asked if we were still interested.  We are so we went to see both bungalows.  Both are nice so it we had to weigh up the pros and cons.  One had a higher fence round the back garden but the other had a fence round the front garden, it has a shower as well as a bath and the kitchen is a bit bigger.  There are new kitchens and bathrooms in both bungalows which is good.  The one we chose we will be signing the contract on Monday with the tenancy starting the following Monday.  However on Tuesday we are going to pay the first week's water rates so we can pick the keys up and get moved in.

That in itself has cheered me up as it gets us away from the neighbour.
Hey Pip,
How are you feeling at the moment?  Noticed you were feeling low last week, hope things have picked up this week and you ain't in as much pain.  Yeah Losartan is correct, don't think that has many common side effects and you certainly will get rid of that cough you had. 
I know what you mean with saying no at church.  I often make a rod for my own back at work cos I like to learn new things and how to do stuff, once you know what you're doing you seem to get the jobs all the time.  Plus, then when someone asks you to do something else you feel bad saying no, well I do, I feel so guilty like am letting them down or like am a failure, so I take it on and then struggle with the workload.  I guess it's a woman's thing lol but we do need to sometimes take a step back and not take everything on.
How is the house hunting coming along, have you had any positive news yet?
Am doing ok and coping at the moment, had a decent weekend and actually enjoyed playing football yesterday and I can't remember the last time I did.  Having a few problems with eating again, have my good and bad days where I hardly eat anything and survive on liquids cos am frightened of putting weight on. Am still on the counselling waiting list think am gonna ring up next week cos it's been over 2 months now. Am doing a meal replacement diet to 1) lose a lot of weight and 2) it is the only way to hide my eating phobia cos people accept "I'm on a diet".  I need my counselling to start in the next month cos I need them to help me overcome my eating problems before the shakes run out and I'm forced to eat again.  Overall though, at the moment, besides the eating, I can say am managing, am far from recovered and well but getting through the day has become easier, which I think the 45mg Mirtazapine is finally working. 
Hope you are well
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #94 on: September 17, 2013, 07:44:20 AM »
Hi there, yes at times I just want someone to say "hey whats up" and just listen not react just to listen. I have been on this site for a while just not been on here much as things were going well, took on a promotion in work, starting to enjoy my own company as well as others.I guess sometimes the rug gets pulled from under us all at times and we hit the floor.I hope your week goes well for you and thankyou for advice.I hope I can offer good advice back to you if you need it. :hug:

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #95 on: September 18, 2013, 09:25:08 PM »
The house hunting was quick.  About 10 days ago I put on three bids all on bungalows that nobody else had bidded on and one was for a mutual exchange.  I went through Durham Key Options which has two options; mutual exchanges and putting bids on empty properties.  If more than one person puts a bid on a property whoever bids first gets first choice if they still want the property.  The closing date for the bids I put on was the 10th September and on the 11th we got a telephone call to say we had a choice between two.  The third one is void which means work needs doing on it so it will be a little while before it's ready.  We went and looked at two of the bungalows that afternoon and decided which one we wanted.  The advantage to the one we chose is that it has a shower as well as a bath.  Both the bathroom and kitchen have recently been updated so completely new in both.  We got a call the following day to say we could sign the tenancy agreement on Monday which we did and moved in yesterday.  It's lovely to get away from the horrible neighbour though,

As to how I'm feeling I am achy all over despite not doing any heavy lifting.  It's the getting the place semi straight so I could start unpacking everything.  Most of our clothes have been unpacked, food has been put in the kitchen and I am gradually getting glasses and crockery unpacked.  I've even managed to get a few books unpacked.  It's going to take a couple more days to get straight but I can live with that.   

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #96 on: October 12, 2013, 03:47:59 PM »
Feeling tired so have had a quiet day in.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #97 on: October 20, 2013, 11:23:55 PM »
Feel ok cos I'm in bed. Mornings terrify me so enjoying this moment.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #98 on: October 21, 2013, 08:18:43 PM »
Feeling relaxed day generally as hubby was out at his men's meeting this morning so I could do a bit of catching up with programmes.  Went out for a walk this afternoon and picked up carpet which I laid in our porch way and have been relaxing since then.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #99 on: October 21, 2013, 08:27:49 PM »
Feeling Lonely and rejected.

Not done much today, no-one to talk to, no-one to sit with, just been alone, just like the many days before this one, I try to keep occupied but it's always there, that feeling of having no-one to talk to... I'd kill for someone just to come round for a cuppa.. just to show me a little bit of someone else's time.
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #100 on: December 11, 2013, 09:01:32 PM »
Been a while since posting here.  My mood has been up and down with the stress of moving but getting better now.  Have been stressed partly because we knew hubby would be going into hospital for a stent to be put in.  It should have been today but there was an emergency so put back ops so hubby was sent home and a new appointment will be made for next year.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #101 on: December 11, 2013, 09:09:48 PM »
Hey,
Sorry to hear your mood has been up and down.Glad you are moving though surely that will help if you ain't around that horrible neighbour of yours.How is your husband?How come he has to have a stent put in?I haven't posted for a while been pretty busy and stressed with work.I have had a horrible week last week my dad had a heart attackvsp I had to do cpr and revive him :( still haven't recovered from it cos I can't bare to process it yet.He came home yesterday but has had a defibrillator fitted in case it happens again.I had my first counselling session today and everything is all mashed up again.Just hope by the end of tje ten sessions I will have got better.Good to hear from you again Pip
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #102 on: December 12, 2013, 06:18:54 PM »
So sorry for your dad ~ it is hard when it's a parent.  My grandad died of a heart attack in the middle of the night while I was still a child.  My grandma woke up about 2 am and he was already dead so she was in a terrible state, rang my dad and he went straight to him.  Hope your dad is feeling better though.

One of my husband's arteries in his heart is completely blocked so the team want to put a stent in to open it up.  If they can't do it they will have to rethink whether to try a different way or do other surgery.  We found out earlier this year that my husband has angina.  We knew one artery was partially blocked then last week we were told another artery is completely blocked.

I hope you do benefit from the counselling.


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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #103 on: December 14, 2013, 07:06:53 PM »
Hi Pip

Feeling low today but at least not suicidal like last few days. 

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #104 on: December 15, 2013, 10:03:08 PM »
Hi Lulubobs66

Hope you've had a better day today.

Our morning started badly due to an aquaintance knocking on the door at 7.20 am.  His excuse was he could see our lights on and assumed we were awake.  I had forgotten to turn off the fairy lights last night so as you can imagine we weren't amused.  We got a long story of how he had gone drinking in Durham last night and had lost his wallet and he had put on the wrong jacket which meant he had lost his money and cards.  He claimed he had to walk from Durham to our home which is about 12 miles and he was still drunk when he got to us.  We didn't even get to the bottom of why he turned up on our doorstep then it took us almost two hours to get rid of him and that was only because a friend agreed to drive him home.  I was giving him cups of coffee which didn't help.

Fortunately our day improved as we went to one of the churches in our circuit this afternoon which was just a social thing then at another church this evening.