How are you feeling?

[Pip]

Enjoy your holiday  0158

Today ended up being a bad day but not because of depression.  Been sick this afternoon and suffered a bad tummy ache all afternoon.  I managed to get some sleep which helped though.

[Pip]

Feeling better than I did Friday.

[loubielou]

Today I feel unsettled.
I finished  blanket I've been making and need to decide on a new project to give me some focus.
Anxiety levels are still creeping up, had to give in and take Lorazepam last night, but at least that meant I slept.

[Pip]

I'm tired and grumpy today as I didn't get enough sleep last night but that is my fault for not going to bed at a reasonable time.  I can only manage basic crocheting of squares so make blankets occasionally.  It's 'therapy' for my fingers as I have osteoarthritis in my hands ~ have got it in my back and ankle as well ~ so helps with keeping my fingers moving.

[Beetzart]

I know how you feel, Pip.  I can't ever seem to get enough sleep, even when I have the chance.  Like your avatar BTW, some people I know should take note of that. 

[Pip]

Thank you, I have another one that says 'I love walking in the rain because no-one can see me crying' which I sometimes put up on Facebook.

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey guys,
Sorry i have been away so long went on holiday to Isle of Skye other week so have been pre-occupied with other things.Firstly how is everyone feeling at the mo?my holiday did me the world of good.It made me realise how much i had to live for and appreciated home,plus its positive effects have lasted almost 2weeks since i got back.However,this afternoon like someone flicked a switch i plummeted downhill to the point where i feel depressed again and have no enthusiasm or desire for anything,i just wanna curl up in a corner and cry.I have no idea what has brougjt it on but this afternoon was an immense struggle.I managed to go to my spin class and i've got football training at 8 but can't face it and cannot think of anything worse than putting on a front and pretending life is a peach.What in Earth could have brought this on?
PP

[Pip]

I'm glad you posted as I was wondering how you were.

I am sorry your mood has dropped, it's horrible when that happens.

Haven't been feeling great due to someone being nasty.  The nastiness wasn't aimed at me personally but it still upset me.  He has been warned not to gossip as the people who know know what was said don't believe a word that has been said.  Of course the damage has been said and he can't take it back.

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey,
That person,is it your neighbour again being an idiot again or have you moved since my absence?Footy training was so hard and i felt like a right failurr,came last in the fitness test and was crap in the kickabout.I cried all the way home.Plus after last week's session my shin and ankle have been sooo painful,i thought it was shin splints and a sprained ankle but after a trip to A&E turns out i have overstretched my ligaments in the top of my foot so gonna be unable to exercise  for 2 weeks,so everyone will be fitter than me and i'll be left behind so my life will just compromise of work in next two weeks it int a life just an existence.how is the church going?
PP

[Pip]

No it isn't the neighbour, we're getting the silent treatment now  which I can live with.  No it's another idiot who is trying to blame other people for some money going missing from an office.  We suspect he took the money and forgot that he had it as it's been noted on paperwork that the money was given into the office and now he can't account for where it is.  He was told to report the incident to the police but as so many people go into the office where the money was that he can't prove who took it.  The end result was that he reported the money missing to the police for insurance purposes but hasn't accused anybody to the police.  The reason I was upset is because I was in the office with one person who was accused.  I had the attitude that if that person was a suspect then I must be as well yet the accuser hasn't blamed me.

Feeling better than I did.

[ParsnipPierre]

That doesn't sound very good,the fact that someone had the nerve to accuse people without any facts.I bet it was upsetting to feel accused in such a way.Has it.got sorted now or is there an atmosphere in the office now?Glad you are feeling better than you did and the neighbour has piped down!am okish at the moment my leg and ankle pain is getting me down cos it's so frustrating not being able to keep active.I still don't have any confidence so going out with my friends in town is out of the question.Plus i am particularly vulnerable to suicidal thoughts and destructive behaviour so i can only drink normally in the safety of my own home but i would like to go up town and enjoy myself,but it's gonna take a while.Have you many plans for the sunny weekend?
PP

[Liv]

I'm not sure if I'm feeling better or just numb at the moment. I think it's numb because I have a hollow feeling inside and just had a crying fit for no reason. Sorry to hear about your current frustrations Pip and Pierre.

[stewart]

feel like im melting

[Catherine21]

Hi, I don't post very often, but feeling very low and suicidal again  . Think it may be the heat and lack of sleep....  . Sorry, just wanted to write it down somewhere.....

[ParsnipPierre]

Hey Catherine,
Really sorry to hear about how you are currently feeling?What are you doing today is it something that can keep you occupied so you aren't just focusing on these suicidal thoughts.I know how powerful they can be cos I have gone downhill this week and you cannot think about anything else they are so strong.Are you on any meds if you don't mind me asking?
I got my mirtazapine increased to 45mg cos i was so low and the suicidal thoughts were poignant again.Last night was my first night on the maximum dose and i was knocked out straight away.Sleep is the only thing i enjoy cos i don't feel when i'm asleep if it makes sense.Tuesday i was really bad i went to my friends i was in such a state i couldn't go home,i was considering suicide that night and had been drinking and harming myself everything got top muh.Luckily sitting with my friend helped and a hug.Make sure Catherine that you have at least one person that knows everything just in case,so you have a safety net!On a positive note i got told my counselling could be as close as 6weeks away,then i will have at least some hope of getting better!
PP