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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #15 on: May 28, 2013, 05:16:15 PM »
I'm tired today and a bit down probably because it has been a long day.  A few years ago when I was on one anti depressant I felt the same over feeling numb and just existing so came of that medication.  No matter what my mood swings are it's better than feeling numb.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #16 on: May 28, 2013, 08:11:04 PM »
The anger and hating others I do relate too  0158 .  Have managed to get through another day and had a hot bath so curled up in front of the tv now watching Holby City.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #17 on: May 29, 2013, 12:37:41 AM »
meant to be training for charity walk but overwhelming feeling of crapness at fact Im overweight, unemployed, partner unemployed and even my own mum thinks I should be sorted by my age all goes over in my head.
Cant say how I feel as its at stage where just feel a fake each day saying I still want to be here when I dont.
The dog keeps me going. She attention seeker which suits me as guaranteed snuggles.
Not sure this undercurrent negative thoughts have ever not been there
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #18 on: May 29, 2013, 02:07:35 AM »
in a word, 'empty'
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #19 on: May 29, 2013, 03:51:21 PM »
Lots of  :hug: Stewart.

sapphire78, what's the charity walk in aid off?

I can relate to how you're feeling.  Today I feel tired and drained but then again we have been busy the last few days.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #20 on: May 29, 2013, 06:05:10 PM »
Had a horrible day it has felt so unreachable to get to the end of work at 5pm.Was supposed to go to gym but just wanted to get home and away from everyone.Got home and sat and cried,which is incredibly unlike me cos i never cry.I just want to beat mys meelf up and am full of self hatred.does this mean my depression is getting worse if I'm experiencing symptoms i haven't had before?didn't think it could get any worse!
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #21 on: May 29, 2013, 07:46:34 PM »
I am sorry you have had a bad day.  It may be new symptons you are experiencing, I can't be sure.  I've got like that at times but then I do suffer with low self esteem so that's 'normal' for me.

I've been busy recently and didn't get home until 7 pm.  Been a better day for me and I am glad to finally get my feet up.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #22 on: May 29, 2013, 08:15:07 PM »
PIP charities are BLESMA and ironically COMBAT STRESS.

Today I feel guilt, for wasting money on food and scoffing it, for not noticing dog was stressed by too many visitors. Also feeling tired, always tired the meds give me the weirdest dreams and I wake up loads during the night.
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How are you feeling?
« Reply #23 on: May 29, 2013, 11:08:12 PM »
Lonely

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #24 on: May 30, 2013, 11:35:09 AM »
why are the walls moving?....
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #25 on: May 30, 2013, 10:18:57 PM »
Thanks sapphire, both are good causes.

It was too good to be true my mood keeping stable.  Today I have been tetchy, feeling low and have felt like the day has gone from bad to worse.  We have a coffee morning once a fortnight at our church so we normally have a coffee before credit union volunteering.  Hubby went out before me as one of the stewards had asked him if minded doing the overhead so showed her different things.  I got up there about 10.30 am and poked my head round the chapel door to let him know I was about and was going over to the back hall to do the hoovering and clean the fridge the church has been given to replace the old one.  I was so fed up by this time I wasn't in the mood to socialize so made my excuses to get on with things.

Instead it seemed lie I got one interruption after another then the community bus volunteers were still in the office gone midday and our time there started at midday for the credit union.  In the end I sarcastically asked if there was any chance of me being able to hoover.  I don't think they realized I was there for credit union as well as hoovering.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #26 on: June 02, 2013, 03:50:20 PM »
Having another bad day emotionally due to the neighbour from hell.  Trying to work out what pleasure he gets out of upsetting me.  I wish I could go to sleep and and not wake up.

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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #27 on: June 02, 2013, 05:34:38 PM »
Do you own your house or is it rented?Is there no option to move?I know we shouldn't have t move cos of dumb ass neighbours but if it is affecting you like it is then it should be considered.
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #28 on: June 02, 2013, 06:07:29 PM »
I've been rather quiet this weekend as I have been in Manchester to see Muse this weekend.Whilst seeing Muse at a stadium gig with my bestest friend ever was well worth it,I feel it emphasised my problems.I used to love going on a night out and could party til the cows came home but when we went out I found myself wanting the night to end cos I felt really anxious and on edge.I found myself really agitated and wanting to punch people who happened to accidentally bump into me.I felt so fat and uncomfortable cos everyone around me was so thin and I hated myself,I got obsessed with finding people who weren't as pretty as me but it never came.Like today I nearly had a panic attack over picking dinner cos i'm frightened to put on weight after last night.I have had a good weekend but couldn't wait to get home and lock the door and hideaway.I think I am becoming scared to go out.I feel I have nothing to look forward to now,like this weekend was it.Having something to look forward to would help me manage my depression but now I fear it will get worse cos I just have work,which I hate and having to meet up with people when I want to disappear :(
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Re: How are you feeling?
« Reply #29 on: June 02, 2013, 09:19:03 PM »
We're in rented accommodation and the housing association knows about the problems we're having.  It's been going on for several months now.  This neighbour is bipolar which is the excuse he and his wife use for his behaviour.  Both myself and my husband suffer with depression but we don't use that as an excuse to behave badly.

The saga started when he complained that we weren't clearing up after our dogs when they poop out there and it was causing a smell.  This is completely untrue but the community team officer for our area had to come out to us.  She was satisfied that we were telling the truth.  Anyway he complained again so she came out just to find out that it was a wasted journey again.  We were really fed up so had a list ready for her over problems we've had since we've lived here.  To make a bit of sense of this there is a right of way through the gardens and as his is the middle bungalow he cuts through ours when he wants to mow his front lawn. These included;
- him chucking pot plants and bags full of grass cuttings on our lawn on the grounds that they were in his way even though they were by the step by back door so he had to walk round that anyway
- pulled out rose bushes and plants at the end of our garden for no reason at all
- made clean washing on the line grubby as he moved them going through our garden
- is noisy from 6 am when he's working
- lets his dog wander off the lead when he takes the dog for a walk or he's out the front.  He's even taken his dog through our garden.

There have been other things but you get the picture.  His dog is a beautiful spaniel called Max and we wish our dogs could play with him.  The problem is our dogs have been attacked by other dogs in the past so they get tetchy with other dogs.  For that reason when we take them out we keep them on their leads when we take them for a walk.  If we see any of our friends with their dogs they know our two will bark but if we stand and chat the dogs calm down.  Unfortunately this neighbour doesn't care nor does he have any respect.  We also brought up the point that he can go through the garden the other side of him.  Anyway the last time he was a pain was just over a week ago when he chucked garden to the end of our garden walked backwards and forwards through our garden several times and even tried peering through our window.  Due to the angle of the blinds he couldn't see much but I knew it was him as his reflection was on my laptop.

Yesterday I went out into the garden for the second time to clear up after the dogs when he came out having a go at me.  He insisted the whole garden was covered and it smelt.  I was sharp back as there wasn't any smell and there was only a couple of bits out there.  He just wouldn't shut up so I went in to calm down then went round the front to put all of two small bags in the bin and he started again.  I completely lost it and gave as good as I got as he was coming out with a load rubbish so I told him exactly that.  Hubby will be back on the phone again tomorrow as I have told him I can't take anymore and would rather be homeless than put up with the war. 

We are on the Homeswapper list but the only people who have been interested live in flats above the ground floor.  That's no good for us even if we didn't have pets as we got our bungalow on medical grounds due to arthritis.  Our physical health has got worse as well.  I've also applied to East Durham Homes as well as they do a bidding scheme.  We want to stay in the same town but just not next door to him.  It is possible that our housing association might suggest moving us our they know we are quite happy being tenants of theirs which would be the best solution for us.

We lived in Rochdale 10 / 11 years ago and it was when the Commonwealth Games were on.  It's rotten feeling anxious though   :hug: