In the space of 30 minutes :-(

[niz]

Finished work,a stressfull day,no breaks.Got home in a good mood then 30 minutes ago bang,tired,low,down total opposite of before.Really sick of this now,just going round in circles.No one to talk to,my problems not getting solved,feel like an outcast,my friends and relations avoid me like the plauge.work again tommorow,feels like my life is killing me :-(

[Sweetpea]

Big  for you niz.

S x x x x

[Catbrian]

Sorry to hear that Niz.  What about medication options?  I know you're on Citalopram 40mg, which is the highest dose I think.  Sometimes it can be a long road of trying a couple of antidepressants before we find one that's suitable and makes a significant difference. 

[niz]

I havnt tried any other meds as doc wanted me to stick with them aswell as counciling,I seemed to have got better now seem to be going backwards,just getting sick of it all,even people in work are getting sick of me,they were concerned at first but now  im getting comments like"just pull yourself together","what have you got to be depressed about" even"there is no such thing as depressed",I just want some peace and happiness.

[Catbrian]

I completely understand, Niz, sometimes times are just really hard.  People cannot grasp the true extent of depression.  It can be a very lonely illness.  There is only so much we can take and if you are feeling like this indefinitely, then press your case with the Doc about medication

Just before Christmas, I had been feeling a lot better.  I was on new meds and other circumstances were improving.  Then, for some unknown reason, my depression came crashing down harder than before.  The disappointment was immense.  It has taken weeks to bring myself to the point I am at now, which is at the opposite end of the scale.   Sometimes you've just got to plod on with faith that it will get better.

I hope this weekend is kind to you

[musicken]

niz
there's nothing much more I can add, but talking to people who don't understand depression usually gets similar responses.

I often am feeling great then suddenly my mood shifts and I can't cope with anything at all, in a short space of time; so I know what you mean.  In fact, much of your opening post could have been written by me.

I hope that the sudden low mood passes quickly and you have a better day tomorrow.

[Catbrian]

Hope today has been better for you

[niz]

Well work is over,had a 101things racing through my head today from leaving my job,leaving my family,how not one of my blood family have not even bothered to come and ask or see how i am in 8 months.hopefully now i am home i can wind my head down and enjoy whats left of the weekend,although im shattered.Thanks xx

[Pip]

  it is frustrating when you're told to pull yourself together.  People who don't suffer with depression don't understand that it isn't that easy.

[Catbrian]

It's hardly surprising you want to run and hide for a while.  Sometimes family issues are amongst some of the worst to deal with on top of the depression - often they are the root of the depression! Hope you manage to wind down

[niz]

Need sleep,goodnight xxxxx

[Sweetpea]

Hope you had a good restful sleep niz and today is kind to you.

S x x x x

[niz]

Thankyou Shaz xx,I had 5 hours sleep but feel okish,took the dog for a walk as its not too bad outside so got some fresh air,dont think it will take much today to knock me flat but I will keep my head up and try to clear my mind.I just hope people on here dont get sick of me rattling on about how I feel,I dont seem to be giving any good advise to others on this site,but all the comments from everyone on here has really helped me this week,thanks everyone  0158

[Sweetpea]

Just got back from walking our dogs as well, dull but nice to get some fresh air. Never feel that you cannot talk about how you feel here, or feel that you cannot help others. We all have times when we feel unable to help if advise others.

Hope the rest if the day is kind to you.

S x x x x

[Catbrian]

Hey Niz... people on here never get sick of other members sharing their depression, that takes courage.

I also had a 2hr walk in the rain with the dog.  For me, walking has been a crutch for my depression, it helps me clear my head and get things into perspective.  I am not good meditating; can't sit long enough.  However , on my daily walks, I always try to incorporate what I understand to be a part of mindfulness, living in the 'here and now'.

I hope you're able to chill for the rest of the day