Hi guys,
Just joined the forum. Quite desperately looking for help.
I started taking Citalopram 4 years ago. Have been up to 40mg but now on 20mg. 4 weeks ago, me and my partner split up, so I've been quite low and upset, but I feel like my tablets have stopped working? I'm unable to cope with the smallest things, everything seems too much for me to handle.
I have been having suicidal thoughts, but don't intend to act on them. It just keeps popping into my head with alarming frequency now and it's scaring me. This isn't like me at all. I can't sleep, have no interest in food and constantly feel low or am crying. Feel like I'm back to how I felt before the tablets
I had a very low point over 2 years ago where the Dr increased my meds. With this increase I felt suicidal and had crazy hallucinations that I believed were really happening to me. I often felt like I was dying and considered walking in front of a bus or drowning myself in the bath to try and make it stop, though I never acted on it. My Dr dropped my meds again and I eventually felt more on an even keel. Similar things happened when i tried to come off the tablets, so I've been on 20mg ever since.
I went to my Dr last week to explain how I was feeling etc, and I asked if we could consider trying a different tablet. She refused and asked me to go back in a week and see how I'm feeling then. I think she will refuse me again. I don't know what to do, this is driving me nuts (quite literally!).
Can anyone offer any help? Do meds stop working after that amount of time?
Thanks all xxx