Willows I can completely relate.
When I was put on meds I thought I had failed my whole life and failed everyone - surely a good, healthy, deserving person would be fine in life and not needs meds? I must be broken? That's what was going through my mind.
But the meds help and it is so important to see someone who knows what they are doing. A psychiatrist should be even better because they have specialised in this field, and you're not just seeing a GP but an expert, who can help you get well.
Don't beat yourself up about this. We are all only human. Needing medication for depression, anxiety, or anything else relating to mental health, does not make you any less 'worthy' or a 'messed up' than someone who needs to take blood thinners for cholesterol or medication for high blood pressure, or diabetes.
You are worthy, you are important, and many people love and care for you. I know, that in time, you will remember that you also love yourself too. It took me a while to re-remember that for myself too.
Hang in there - you're doing the right thing seeing the psychiatrist.
Keep posting here to let us know how you're doing. We want to support you.
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